B.A.S.T.R.I.N.G.U.E

Birds of a Feather Flock Together

2011-03-16T18:32:00.009+08:00

It's been a year and 2 months and 12 days I'm here in MIMET. After a year, I found myself being so comfortable, secured and happy like I've always been despite the workloads, rumors and whatnots that are never tired of attacking me.

I believe that I am as jovial and happy as I always be because of these people whom I hang out with who are so helpful whenever I'm in trouble.

Ujie, the hot Mama. She's just gave birth to a handsome baby boy.

Kaspi (or Kash), single, rich and healthy.

AzROY Zoy, Taken and has a very sensitive skin.

Aimi. Single and available. Kind-hearted. Garang too. =P

Sarah and Kak Nik (or Nicky), the English unit team. They are crazy because they are TESLians too.

The cat that I have a share on, Ms. Tiger. So manja one!

Karl Haykal b. Nabil Fikri, the prince charming. Cepatlah besar!

Birds of a feather flock together. So, what kind of feather you wear?

2011 (Maybe These are some of the Things that I want, and Some are Unexpected)

2010-12-28T15:33:00.007+08:00

2011...2011...2011...

Well, 3 days to go, and we'll be in 2011.
I'm not going to talk about my 2011 resolutions. No, I haven't planned my 2011 yet.
However, my 2010 is the best year of my life so far. It's the new beginning, new transition which I think I did well.

2010 is the year where I began my serious career - teaching. I was ambivalent sometimes, at odd times, but I think I'm sure that this is the thing that I love doing. This is the profession that I just have to embrace. At times, yes, I felt like shit - I was busted, I taught them wrong things, I was lazy and demotivated, I was clueless, and whatnots. Despite the downfalls, there were more than often, I felt like they just can't live without me that made me felt like this is what I am meant to do, and somehow, I think that I belong to this place - my workplace. (and maybe I'm gonna stay longer here, let's see). I am so grateful to Allah...

2010 is the year in which I should be proud of myself. I don't come from a luxurious family, my parents would never pay for my petty trivial things that I want that they thought were not my priority. Yes, my parents have to control every single flow of the moolah, for they had to raise 7 children. This understanding 6th child seemed not to show rebels or unpleasant attitude if the wishes were not their commands. Somehow, I should be grateful this year, that I finally could be the one who is the resource of the family. I paid for the home groceries, I bought presents for my parents, brother and sisters, and I gave them pocket money monthly. I do it because I can afford it now. back then, I beg for money from my family (beg is too much of a word. ASKED) especially my father. I can say that I pay for my every single thing by my own, even though there were times where I was flat broke and must kept going alone. There were times where I just ate bread for one whole day because I have to pay for my rental house. I was too shy to ask from my parents, for it was quite a big amount of money. However, there were times where I made my friends and family happy when everything was on me. That's how I see it, money;come and go. Nevertheless, I can be proud of myself, for I can afford a simple cute car on my own, shoes, handbags; even though they are not from famous designers, pay for my bills, and an expensive phone, and still can live happily through out the month. I am so grateful to Allah...

2010 is the year that I could see that my life is leading to a better stage. I have found a perfect man of my life, whom I wasn't sure about living my whole life with in the past few months, and got the approval from my family.
By the way, my family is expanding now, where we're having a new pregger among us, which is my sister who just got married in June 2010. My niece was selected to become the school prefect, where the teachers thought she is responsible, smart and reliable to the school. I don't know, all I can say is I am so grateful to have this wonderful life with my lovely expanding family. I am so grateful to Allah...

2010 is the year where I've expanded my networking. I have new friends from other campuses, and we get along very very very well. I think my social skill is improved, the way I carry myself has somehow polished and I am more confident with myself now. I don't give a damn to whatever people might want to say, have said, or say about me, I will just live my life, appreciate every single petty things around me and go to those who care because that makes me happy. No matter how they want to provoke me, to trigger my dark side, be my pleasure, I'll handle with care. This is the year where I really really enjoy my life in my own way. I am so grateful to Allah...

Wow, 2010 is reaching the end. My life is now changed, better and happy still. Wow. 2010. It's like a total new dimension of my life as compared to 2009. Let's pray for these good things in us will still be with us, so that we can spread it to everyone inside the bubbles. InsyaAllah...

This is just a brief conclusion of my 2010 with no deep extensions. Playing with words is just not my forte.Maybe these are some of the things that I want, and the rest are Unexpected.

Okay, next! Buy a house, further my study, build a family. InsyaAllah. :)

P.S: I know that this post is so sudden. It popped out just like that. I forgot the sign in email of this blog until just now when it came flowing into my memory like a leaking pipe. Haha!

Motherland and Loverboy

2010-08-31T00:27:00.004+08:00

Happy 53rd Independence Day!

and Happy 3 years of Happiness to us!

this was 3 years ago (I was still young. and cute..and...)

counting for the next phase for this ship

Apparently none of us is a camwhore. Well, the camera doesn't love me tho. I don't remember having any latest photo together. Hurmm..

Hello, Please Meet Her

2010-06-22T17:18:00.004+08:00

Yes, my Angelfish, Mable. Haha..

Mable with Boy, staring at me, who is now a night-potato-couchs!

Being a potato couch at home after work, my attebtion will be diverted not only to the TV, but also to the funny fishes in that tank, that is next to the TV. Everytime Boy makes that bubbles, I will think that he is hungry. No, he is not. He just love to entertain me.

Meanwhile, as for Mable, I found out that she loves Readhead. Yes, my orange cactus.

See, she loves to float on that side of the bowl...Oh, there's is Bulge, another cactus of mine.

I found this funny, somehow. She will be floating, staring at Redhead, smwimming around, and come back to the same spot, to stare at the plant. Maybe one day I should move this plant to somewhere else and see what sill happen to her. Haha!

By the way, my Tiger Barb, which I am yet to give him a name, seems so sad. Actually he is a schooling fish. Hence, he will be sad when he saw nobody of the same species. Only once in a while he will be seen swimming around with Boy, the goldfish. But lately I can rarely see him. He would be found hiding behing the plastic plant I put inside the bowl.

Maybe, I should get his friends later. Wait, to get a school of Tiger Barb requires me a bigger tank. Well..maybe I shall trade him at the aquarium shop.

Meanwhile, my swordtail, Rae and Blige, I will surely get your new friends soon.

Fish!

2010-06-20T23:47:00.007+08:00

Everyday, every time I watch TV, I can't help but to look at my lonely goldfish. his partner died a week ago. Well, he committed suicide, I'd say. He jumped out of the bowl which I believe had been days stranded crying for help. Haha! Eh. Poor lil fish.

The lonely goldfish, lets call him boy; loves to do the bubble while staring at me, who is sitting on the couch, that facing the TV, that is next to the bowl, in which he is swimming. Sometimes he circle around the bowl, chasing, oh, I don't know.

Meanwhile, from the couch, when I turn my head to my right, down a bit to the feet level, I'll see the small square aquarium, where I keep the swordtails. Ah, by the way, there are only two swordtails left; Ry and Blige only. Jay was found floated on the surface, not so many days back. i don't know the reason of the death.

Staring at the two tanks where I keep my fish, more than often I feel like giving up. Not only I don't find keeping a fish as ideal, where we are actually take them away from their habitat; I also feel like I don't have the time to feed them. I tend to forget. Well, maybe because they are too little as compared to cats. Fishes don't meow like cats if they're hungry. Fish don't come to us and rub themselves to our feet like cats do. Okay, that shows the unideal parts that I'm talking about. Urm. Guess so.

But hey! Guess what??

I just bought two new fish! I intended to get him (the lonely goldfish) a new friend. Yes, I did. In fact, two new friends! However, they are not goldfish! It happened when I stopped by the road to buy coconut drink. Well, Manjung is really really hot that I feel that I need to wet my throat all the time!

After lunch, I drove around the small town until I saw a banana fritters stall that sells coconut drink. I maneuvered my car across the street to get that cooling drink. As I stopped the car, and getting ready to get out of it, I was fascinated by a school of goldfish that was swimming happily in a tank inside an aquarium shop, a few meters from me.

Suddenly I forgot about my deserted throat and went straight to the shop. I believed that, that was the time for me to get him a new friend. Surprisingly enough to me, instead of browsing the goldifsh in that tank, I walked through the row of tanks and browsed other fishes.

I asked the owner about compatible fish to be put together inside my goldfish bowl. Well, most of the tanks have the compatible fishes. After browsing and thinking, I decided to get Anglefish and Tiger Barb to be his new friends. Now I have two new fishes! I hope they befriend with each other inside that not so big bowl.

To my swordtails, wait, babies, I'll get you new friends from your breed, okay. =)

Oh, I told SailorBoy about my new hobby. Err..well, maybe a hobby. He told me that one day, we might have something like this at home...

"Yay!!"

On Radio to Work

2010-06-19T03:03:00.000+08:00

sacrifice

2010-06-19T02:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I hate it.

No, not hate. Dislike.

Sometimes he dislikes it too.

We dislike it when the time appears to be difficult for us.

Nevertheless, I know.

I know this is the best for him now.

Yes, at least for now.

I don't want you to quit. I know you can go further in this.

The perfect time will come for us, baby. We'll be there, someday.

2010-06-16T15:02:00.003+08:00

....is he the one? Now I'm not sure.

Really.

ATTENTION: Well...

2010-05-28T19:20:00.003+08:00

...it's only my birthday wishes. Nothing big, really.

1. A netbook. I am really in need of a new computer, for the one that I'm using now has been challneging my patience so much. It's like, hello, I've been using it for almost 5 years, with one-time-concussion. A serious concussion. Nobody can handle my lappy but me. Trust me, you will never can wait for it's lagging or troubleshoot it's problem like I do.

Well, it can be Asus...

..or this handsome Acer Ferrari.

2. Stabilizer bar, for Ahbie.

ee nee mini my nee mo. okay, red one!

Ah, okay, that's all. See, I am not hard to be taken care of. =P

Other than that, of course I wish for happiness for my family, friends and myself. Many happy returns! ;D

p.s: My birthday is 13 days to go, yea.

Hatiku Seram

2010-05-21T01:28:00.001+08:00

wah~ kau dah nak kawen, kawen la..jangan la ajak aku kawen ngan kau. Y_Y

ohh..kau dah nak kawen, kawen la...jangan la nak buat aku bestfriend, nak bagi aku saree segala bagai..kita pernah kawan ke. Y_Y

(walaupun aku suka gila nak pakai saree)

Oh, kau buat aku serammmm... T_T

That Friend

2010-05-19T23:45:00.004+08:00

I think I've lost that friend.

I think I've lost him, a friend who cares about me and loves me more than himself.

I think I've lost a friend whom I care about, no matter what the flaws are.

I think I've lost a friend who will take care of me as if I'm his little princess.

I think I've lost that friend, as he's no where to be found in my radar; so suddenly.

Where have you gone? Is there anything wrong that I've done?

Please come back.

Soon.

Or later, it doesn't really matter.

I think I've lost that friend, which the thought that I don't want to think of.

I just can't afford not to be attached to you.

My May/June (Interval)

2010-05-19T16:08:00.004+08:00

WoW!!!!

Where do I sit/stand?

WoW~

My Pet

2010-05-17T16:44:00.015+08:00

Well, well.

I am never fond of keeping fish as a pet. Other than not being able to play with me, I don't find it as an ideal pet for me, for they can't clean themselves. err..I mean I'll need to clean the tank regularly. it is time consuming, right? Ha-ha. So lazy one!

Somehow, for some reasons, I need to keep them at home.

Here, meet my fishes. They are from the Swordfish family (according to the tauke). By the way, pardon their names. Lolz. It came in randomly after I bought them, right after I stepped into the car.

Ma (pronounced as 'mae'), the first fish in the flocks that I believed has captured my eyes in that large tank.

Ry, that has a errm..kinda good digestive system . See there. the feces?

Blige, the sprinter. He loves to swim fast around the bowl (almost all the time), and chase other friends. And he eats a lot too!

Sean. he loves to eat too. He's body is ~~a wonderland~~ beautiful for it reflects blue color.

Jay, or J for short. His personality is yet to be discovered.

So, if you notice, after reshuffling the names, I suppose you can get their names clearly...Ha Ha! ;p I think I need to change the names, tho. I don't see the significance here.

HUrrmm..it looks like the virtual fish tank that I used to have.

One more thing, I don't have a stool or table to put them on. Well, I'm in a process of moving into a new house, therefore my expenses is s bit tight this time. Wait ah babies, for now, you'll have to stay on the white clean floor.

"La la la!!~"

"to people out there, stop having your virtual fish tank!! Keep me as your pet! Living pet!!"

2010-05-16T03:22:00.006+08:00

He :
I'll never tie the knot until I know you're with someone else. I mean, have
found the replacement.

She:
Why? Is the marriage the last resort of not being together with me?

He :
Nope...I just want to assure that you're not alone. I don't want you to be alone.

Of Celebrations

2010-05-16T01:27:00.007+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!

Being brought up in a family of teachers has somehow driven me to be a teacher, myself.

By the way, don't forget to check out as many Google homepages as many as you can (apparently this is the thing I look forward for on every celebration=P).

Click Google Malaysia. :)

http://www.google.com.my/

Shhhhh!

2010-05-16T01:13:00.004+08:00

Hey, I have a secret!

I wanna go to Dubai.

Eh. I mean a dream. My dream is to go to Dubai!

Hm...

2010-05-13T19:01:00.003+08:00

Maybe I know
deep in my soul
That love never lasts

I've got a tight grip on
reality
But I can't let go what's in front of me
here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you
wake up

Leave me some proof,
it's not a dream
And I'm on my way
to believing...

This Song

2010-05-12T00:52:00.005+08:00

We used to sing this song together...
We would keep on replaying this song again and again and again on our long long journey.

He said that this song is for me.
"the song is suffice to tell you my feelings. It tells our story," that's what he told me.

And I, I had to agree with that as I know that this is beyond what we've ever thought too.

This is like a miracle to him.
Ditto, love.

He used to sing this song to me. He's quite a talent, trust me.

Now that he's away.....
...nobody's gonna sing the song to me anymore.

It's 1.33 am, and I miss you.

Do come back soon so that we can sing again.

Rawak

2010-05-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

Tiba-tiba...

...rasa macam-macam benda pulak nak kena fikir..

OooOOooo..So This is the One..

2010-05-03T11:06:00.002+08:00

Emmmm...Nakkkk!! ;D

I Pledge...

2010-04-29T22:47:00.006+08:00

Hello.

It's been months, huh?

Well..He's leaving soon. So soon. It was so sudden when he heard that news. It was so sudden when he uttered it from his mouth that I thought it was just a gag, as we were happily laughing over some funny matters. For that, I believed that it was unplanned by him. It was unintentionally.

And because of that, sailorBoy, below are my pledges while you are away, that I hope it'll eventually becomes my norms.

1. I pledge that I will never exceed 120mph, be it on a freeway or on my way to work.

2. I pledge that I will slow down upon the yellow light, not to fight the red light.

3. I pledge that I will never ramp the engine like a crazy driver.

4. I pledge that I will control my expenditure on shoes. (well, I'm sure I can do this one as I have just bought 6 pairs).

remember this? I snapped it during our stop at Hentian Sungai Buloh :)

Well yes, He's signing on on May 1st, and he knew about this today (Thursday). For this time, He's taking Puteri Firus, back and forth Bintulu-Japan. It was quite saddening to me as the dream that we are in is still on and it was interrupted by the awakening news, so suddenly.

However, I'm okay with it (at least for now). We still can keep in touch at least once a week, aite? Just like we did it when I was still a student. :)

My prayers will always be with you, and the crews on board. May all of you have a smooth sail. With love from all of us who never stop thinking of all of you, who never stop pray for your safety and health, I hope that the months will go by overnight (it is not necessary to trust this one).

Anyway, you didn't know this - I heard this song everyday on road; and this song is always for you.

One more thing that you must know.
After the 3 weekends spending time together like there's no tomorrow, I believe that the feelings are mutual now. You know what I mean. We've discussed about it, eh? :P

p.s: Sayang, for item no. 1, can I at least not exceed 140mph on a freeway, please? Pleeaaassee??

"yes, you can"
really? okay, babai. you know that I love you, right? :P

My BFF

2010-03-28T23:53:00.004+08:00

Hello :)

Hey~ Lo~ :O

Well, I'd love to show off my BFF. Err..I don't really like the term, BFF tho.

After years (many many years, I mean); since I was still a kid (to him), he is my soulmate, I'd say. He knows me inside-outside. He strengthens my points without me having to tell him. He unveils my most secretive feelings. I just can't keep anything from him - *sigh*. He knows how my system goes. He even knows the person I love the most. He's ready to protect me and biff those who screw me up!

I heart him muchos that I'd cry myself to sleep should he's no longer there to protect me. ;(

No, he doesn't want to be famous. He refuses his photo or anything about him to be published anywhere, unless for the Ministry purpose i.e. Jabatan Pendaftaran, for the I.C and passport.
But I've already published this. So how now? Shall I just proceed with your photo? ;p

Thank you for being such a darling to me. Eh, making me such a darling to you. Hihi :)

I heart you too :)

Oh, I shall change the title to My BBF then ;)

From Her to You.

2010-03-14T19:07:00.005+08:00

Hello, how are you today?

What are you doing?

Have you taken your bath?

Breakfast / lunch/ dinner?

Have fun with Dj. :)

Hitting the bed already?

No no no...She doesn't care at what time did he wake up this morning. She doesn't want to know if he'd taken his meals. It's up to him when is he going to take his bath, with whom he wants to go out today, what he's doing, etc. She doesn't even care. She doesn't even want to know or ask about it.

*
*
*
Because those are the things about him that she's already known by heart. She knows his daily routine already. She knows every single thing he's doing and his activity with Dj too.

Out of all the things that she could wish for right now, he is above all. Yes, he is above all.

"Me??" Yes, you.

She just want to see you. Having meals at your favourite spots, munching on boxes of Rocky together, going out for movies, ermm...what else? Ah, she can't recall things that you usually did together, for it has been almost 7-8 months ago!

She's stopped counting days. She's stopped hoping. She's stopped all her wishful thinking. There's nothing else that she could wish for but to see you, and to feel you for real.

"Mais...quand?" She asked herself.

Hey, You.

2010-03-14T00:15:00.006+08:00

I felt like I’ve known her for life for the first time I saw her.

She’s my reflection. We share almost everything in common. We pointed out to the same beautiful blouse from afar when we were walking together. We have somehow the sme approach in teaching and managing our anger towards the students, we like the same food, we share the same interest; wait, no. Not really. She doesn’t play sports like I do. “akak memang kaki bangku,” her favourite self-proclaim.

I miss her. I hope she's doing great there.

Before she left, she gave me these...

this hub...

the envelope of Kapersky anti-virus. Yes, just the envelope; and the mask that has been hanging on her notice board, i believe since the H1N1 aftermath; that is before I was called to apply here, i suppose.

and soon, I'm leaving my hub too. Yes, very soon.
*yeah, it's messy, I know*

:)

2010-03-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

This is deep. Thank you le Beau. I heart you, nevertheless. :)

Attempt #1

2010-02-24T02:07:00.002+08:00

I miss writing/rambling here.

But I have no time; either to have a lengthy writing, or even to think of it.

Well, maybe later; when everything is in its place.

=)

2010-02-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

You Name It

2010-02-11T13:50:00.001+08:00

hem..

losing my muse...

I'm a Cry Baby, Affirmative!

2010-02-07T15:54:00.004+08:00

Ahhh. I'm hungry!!

Just done with the test paper for my students. I need to come to the office since I didn't come yesterday. My father and little brother and his friend were here!! Oh, I miss my family so much! They went back to the hometown this morning after having breakfast together. I took my brother and his friend around Manjung and Lumut (ehemm!! I know this place quite well, now). I took them to the best places to eat and tell them stories about this province. How's that? And oh, I made my brother's and his friend's dream to ride the banana boat!! Not once, but twice! And I'm happy that they really had fun yesterday!! =D

I am trully blessed and I'm sure that my father is happy and maybe so grateful seeing me happy here with the good people whom he can count on to to look after me (even though I'm big enough and deserve to get married), as a father or parents, that's just them - to think that their daughter is still young and need to be taken care of like they did when we're small. Moreover, for someone who is as clumsy as I am that is sometimes careless, an accident-prone; he needs to be extra- worry about this one daughter out of all the other four he has.

Well, yes. I am truly blessed and I can't stop thanking Him for the life that he's given me here. (OMG..I'm about to shed a tears! such a sentimental mood I have here)!. Sometimes, when I am alone and got the time to reflect everything back, I myself can't believe that I am here now, in a totally new place, where I don't know anybody else but my brother who is not always here for sailing, new responsibilities that I think is quite big for me ( to teach Degree level is quite challenging to me for I've been dealing with younger groups back in my teaching history) and I'm doing great. Anyway, I said teaching them is quite challenging as the approach that should be implemented is rather different when dealing with the younger ones. But again, Alhamdulillah, so far, the feedbacks that I got from my dear students tell me that I'm doing the right things up to this point even though sometimes I feel like I'm doing crap.

Here, I would like to thank Kak Zam, Kak Ana and Kak Mas and Kak Ani and family for making me feel not at all alone in this new place. I feel like I have another family here. =)

My colleagues - Kak Niza, Kak Uji, Wena and Kak Maz for keeping me young and free here =). Encik Aslan for making me feel like I have an Abah here (heheh). *dem, this is really sentimental!* I think I'm getting my period. That's why it is so fragile now, my heart.

Despite the busyness and sometimes loneliness that I'm facing here, I'm still doing great because of them. Thank you, people! I heart all of you! =)

Ma, Abah, you don't have to worry about your daughter here. Maybe I'm the youngest; but like the elder sisters, this youngest is also doing great here; on the other side of the map that is a bit astray from the rest. And by the way, why does this matter? I' ve been away from my family since I'm in secondary 1?? To be away from family is normal. But well, maybe I miss my family damn muchos. And to my defense, as I grow older, I learnt to appreciate family more than friends. When I was in the boarding school, I shared every single thing with my friend. That makes sense since I lived my daily life with them - wake up, bath, meals were all with them. There was once I didn't go back home for almost two months as we were busy preparing for the PMR and the school held extra classes. However, as I grow older, finishing my university level, I started to share everything with my blood sisters, mother and sometimes my father. It was like a big transformation of a transmission. It just happened. I have no theory to strengthen my claim there. Maybe a certified family counselor can explain this?

Okay, I should stop rambling here.

But for the record, yes, I'm such a cry baby sometimes* and this is one of those moments. ;)

Ahoy!

2010-02-01T00:28:00.003+08:00

Hey, it's February.

Month of romance to some people.

They would have started to think of their valentine's gifts.

Ah. Crap.

Hey hey, he's comingggg! :D

And I'm accelerating~

Alas..

2010-01-21T13:36:00.002+08:00

Yoh! finally I got to blog! Apparently MIMET blocks certain proxies including blogger, youtube and yet to know. But thanks to Jackson, who told me about www.hidemyass.com in which we can go through all the blocked proxies that might be very important to us. Hehehe.

Nevertheless, I think I have nothing much to say. Or I should say, I have less time to think about other things but catching up on my responsibilities at this new place. I'm teaching Bachelor students which happens to be the group thathas never been taught by the permanent lecturers here until I joined. And my contact hour is 21 per week, teaching 2 Bachelor subjects and 1 Diploma subject. I am starting from scratch here. According to them, that is a normal scenario for those who just joined here. And personally to me, it is normal to see me spending time at the office on Saturdays just to plan my lessons for the whole following weeks. I take it as a challenge and most important thing is to improve my productivity.

Well, I'm getting my ryhtm here - there's a senior lecturer who is willing to teach me on how to play tennis, my senior in TESL 17, Ms. Sarah Nadiah who has succesfully dragged me into the sport activities here ( I got to play badminton and netball last week on a friendly match with IKM Lumut) * sarah, your racket is still with me*, Wena and Kak Nik who are always making me feel at home derived from the TESLian circle; Kak Niza, Kak Maz and my highly respected officemates who are always giving me guidance regarding the 'styles' we have here in MIMET. yes, I'm getting my rythm here, so far. And I hope I'll get the solid grip here before persuing on my other life activities. :)

And why is my entry sounds like an award winning speech? sheeeesh~

No, I do not win anything yet. I just want to express my gratitude on the blessings that He gave me here. :)

Okay, I feel like I'm wasting my time. I'd better get back to planning lessons! shoohs!

Beautiful

2010-01-09T12:04:00.007+08:00

I'm glad for the view that I can see everyday at Lumut Esplanade; that is less than 10 minutes from my house.

That's why I must get a camera yang lagi HEBAT. All these should not be wasted. So, to anybody yang tak tahu lagi, my birthday is in June. You still have time to start your saving for my birthday gift, okay. Or maybe just to add up mine if it fails to reach the target. :)

P.S: I had to upload in blogger since it took me some depressing time to upload in Fb! :)

P.S.S: the ships and the boats are just a few meters from where I sat having my ABC. :))

Welcome Aboard

2010-01-06T08:30:00.005+08:00

Assalamualikum and good morning! :)

Haven't updated my blog for days. Been too busy with the new place, new environment, new responsibility and new friends. Syukur Alhamdulillah, He sent me to a good place, where I met good people. :)

Okay, let's make this a quickie!

1. I love the view I see every morning on my way to work. I'll cross two bridges in which one of the bridges is crossing an estuary where we can see big boats are parked. I think there's a shipyard along the estuary - yet to explore. Maybe when I got the chance, I'll snap a picture of the place.

2. I like the people in this company. They are helpful and warm. there's no gap between the academic staffs, administration staffs and the supporting staffs. We are all family. For me, I'm still taking my slow-mo to fit myself in this happy crowd.

3. My office is located at the end of the isle. Again, I think this office is just like the one of my former workplace. It is like a favourite spot where everybody comes to meet up, have breakfast together, and discussions. And, again, my office is in front of the boss's office. Just like in my former place. Oh, anyway the office is a big room of 4. I'm sharing it with four other lecturers of engineering, management and err...something like something dot dot fibre. Heheh.

4. I heard that this company is loaded with activities for the staffs - sports, celebrations, trips etc. Just what I want! To get myself back in sports! :)

5. Manjung town is a good place to live. We have everything we need here. It's just that the road here is quite confusing with all the 4-junctions. It's like layers of junctions where we can go anywhere using any junction which I found quite a problem to me. In general, I'm just not good with directions. :P

Okay, I have to meet the Dato' at 11 this morning and a medical check up at 4 this evening. Let's pray for the best while I'm here; in the new place. Again, I'm so grateful with all the blessings from Him. It makes me think about something. A better thing that I did not do in my past. :)

2009-12-26T16:53:00.001+08:00

Hey, you! Mr. Inaccessible.

This Is Not a Review

2009-12-22T02:20:00.006+08:00

Well, it started when I tried to entertain a friend in FB. But this song is just mesmerizing to me that I'm pretty sure it's going to maim my night tonight.

I first heard this song in a the movie Wickerpark at my sister's house. Well, that movie also somehow created a bond between my sister's friend at that time who happens to be her fiance now; and me. I mean, I enjoy movies that are not cliche, in which we can never expect the story line let alone the ending. This movie gave such a deep impact to my sister and I when our assumption was nothing at all close to the line. Oh, back to the bond I mentioned earlier. He introduced us the movie and urged us to watch it. "It's a good movie" - that was his claim. He lent us the DVD and after watching it, I must say that he is one of the guys whom I know has a very high taste in selecting movies for favourite. And I just have to say this; this movie uses a pair of heels as the symbolism. Well, shoes and me - we are always meant to be. But that is not the reason for my love toward this movie. Well, with some dancing, it's just a coincidence. But I adore the shoes used in that movie. Mind you, even though I mentioned shoes, this movie is not the flick chic type of movie. Nothing close to that. For those who haven't watched it, I'm not going to tell you more about the movie for 1) I'm not good at describing and 2)I'd love you to go watch it for your own sentiment (if you feel want to).

"Passion never dies."

And knowing me, to look good soundtracks of movies that suit my ears is one possible crazy obsession to fill one of my traits. "Strange and Beautiful" is one of them.

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyric's top
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...
Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...

Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...

*Yeah..currently obsessed with.

Posting

2009-12-20T11:40:00.002+08:00

uhurrmmm *clear throat*

Dengan sukacitanya dimaklumkan saya telah ditempatkan mengajar ke Negeri Pahang Darul Makmur.

Saya dimita melapor diri dan menghadiri taklimat di SMK Seri Semantan, 28400 Mentakab.

Lihat di situ, 28400 MENTAKAB. Tempat kelahiran tu..Tempat yang kami tinggalkan pada 1997.

Seronoknye dapat balik tempat lahir..

Tapi dilema nye sekarang ni ialah..UniKL pun nak...KPM pun sama...yang mana satu pilihan kalbu? Saya ni boleh tahan ambitious jugak orangnye sebenarnya. Ish!

*Btw, boleh pulak buat announcement macam ni kan? Takpe, baru la senang kawan-kawan aku nak tau aku dapat posting kat mana kan. Korang mesti tanya jugak nanti kan..hurmm..*

Sangat monotone sekarang ni..

Happy New Year

2009-12-18T14:17:00.005+08:00

Sempena tahun baru ini, saya berazam untuk memajukan diri saya. Dia dah bagi jalan, tugas saya adalah untuk memanfaatkan jalan yang diberi itu sebaik mungkin. InsyaAllah.

Jom la kita sama-sama maju! :D

*teringat zaman sekolah dulu. Bila Maal Hijrah, cikgu suruh masuk nasyid*

It lasts for a week in silence.

2009-12-17T02:04:00.010+08:00

Well...

I got this superb news on last Friday. I was so grateful for the Merciful Allah listened to my prayers. I don't know why but I wanted this opportunity so much. After the Zohor prayer, I once again told Him things that I wanted. And this is one of the good things a human can ask from the Creator.

As I finished my prayer, I checked my mailbox. I had not checked it for days as it is usually a list of vacancies from JobStreet. Somehow, there's an urge in me telling me to check my mailbox on that day. There was a latest mail received - Re: additional information, sent today (Friday at 12.27 pm). I've dealt with the subject (additional information; twice. Hence I presumed that maybe they need something else this time). I opened it without expecting anything at all.

As I was reading the first line, I was gasping. My jaw dropped a bit, and my eyes was like popping out from the sockets. I looked ugly in that face. I had not finished reading the first line when my phone rang. An unfamiliar number appeared but I could guess the place of the call made by looking at the city codes. I was excited and couldn't even speak properly to the person on the other line. Yes, it's the HR of the place. He just got back from the Friday prayers, I presume as it was 2.30 pm. He called me as he saw no response followed his email to me. Like hello, you emailed me just before you went to the mosque. It was 2 hours back. I believed that he must too, be very happy with the news that he brought me. He's such a nice guy. We talked for a while, I listened to things that I'd just read the first line, and I asked permission to hung up. I just couldn't talk for I was so excited and my heart beat like I've just done my one big lap of jogging after years of not doing it. No, it's even faster. I told my mom, unbelievably, my sister and my father. When everything was in its place, I called the HR back to get more details regarding the offer. He told me, "you are now the new staff of MIMET." and I think he could hear me smiling all way long.

I did not tell anybody but my family about this happy news. Not even my friends, SailorBoy or anybody. I have no answer for why, here. But I think as I am writing, all the significant people whom I think deserve to know about my whereabouts are informed with this news either from me or my Facebook.

For that event,

I would like to thank Adib, Mun and Kakteng for accompanying me to the interview and also checking up the place. In which reminds me that I got a summon ticket for speeding in Manjung that was informed last night. Okay, and also to my mentor, Kak Sanisah for telling me to just write in to any colleges and university that I wish to work for. Or else, I wouldn't get the opportunity to be called for the interview in the first place even though there are several places that did not give any feedback towards my applications. And to our regular visitor at the office, En. Azhan for being such a daddy telling me these and that including all the relevant and irrelevant topics of life. Not to forget all my colleagues who had given sufficient guides regarding career path in this field. I am glad to be surrounded by generous people who never stop sharing and telling me the ups and downs, the dos and don'ts in this new world of mine.

Eh, this sounds like I've just received an award, huh? No no. Not just yet. This is the real beginning to me in stepping in this new path. I am not to see or even dream about the outcomes yet. All I have to do is, to start fresh for this coming new year.

Okay. I think that's all for tonight. I should be sleeping as tomorrow errr..2 - 3 hours from now, I need to get up for sahur. Yes, it's nearAwal Muharam. Puasa sunat. :)

Dang. I was already sleepy when I wanted to write this. This is bad. Niteynite!

Taknak tau Pun takpe

2009-12-14T01:25:00.003+08:00

Tadaaa~

Look at my header! Well, yeah..I’ve just got too much time to kill this time around and yes, everyday I need to come out with new activities; or not so new. Hence, I did some browsing and Adobe-ing and walla! Bukan apa, saja je. I think I need to inject some energy in here for me to keep my stories.

Why didn’t I just use the templates that I can find anywhere in the web? Sometimes I just don’t like the layouts where the arrangement of the boxes might not according to my taste, the theme itself might not represent me or well, maybe I just don’t want to be seen having the same layouts as anyone else’s. Okay, okay these are just petty things that I shouldn’t talk about, I think.

But, hurrrmm..one thing leads to another. Actually I feel like talking now but everybody in this house is already asleep. Here we go.

I notice that I’m the person who avoids things that everybody is crazing about. It’s not that I’m trying to avoid. How to say it eh? Oh, I’ll lose my interest in things that everybody goes fanatic for. In some cases, I’ll be called as out-dated for being that way. You know, not knowing the in thing? Yes, I could be that single person who does not know bout the in thing. When I say this, I don’t mean that I’ll be losing my interest on everything that people craze about. I mean there are several things that affect me that way that I shall keep to myself. For example, when I was little (it’s in 90’s). Do you remember the London Boy watch that the face of the watch will change its colour according to the temperature? It came in two sizes – big and small. Discard it! Stop trying so hard to recall if you don't know! But I remember at that time, everybody in my school ( I mean almost everybody whom I knew) was wearing that watch. I didn’t give a damn to it. Really. I did not even ask my father to get me one, except for my brother. He asked my father to buy him that watch, really bad and you know, being the two kids n the family made me happened to have that watch too as my father didn’t want me to show that scary long face of mine without knowing that, hello, Abah, I didn’t want the watch! I didn’t even know that he bought it for me! But eventually, I myself got excited every time the watch changed its colours and I would report to my brother to compare the colour with his! Well, my point is, I have that weird manner sometimes. Up until now. Rarely.

Okay okay, what a ramble!

By the way, I’d like to tell you that there’s one road in Seri Iskandar, Perak that I call as ‘literally bumpy road’. It is called such because of the bumpy effect it gives while you’re driving along that road as compared to the previous roads you'd have passed. There’s something about this road…I think I’m going to be on that ‘literally bumpy road’ for coming years.

Hurm..it rains here tonight. It could be a sign that, “hey, it’s gonna rain for days, yo!”.

Ahlan wa Sahlan ~

2009-12-12T17:46:00.010+08:00

Hello. Hey lo. Halu.

InsyaAllah, SailorBoy or Seri Balqis - the vessel that he is in; is now heading to Fujairah and scheduled to anchor there on 14th December 2009. Hurmmm...let's see..where it is..

clicklickclick!! best~

The vessel will enter the Balhaf Terminal on the 18th.

click to enlarge

The terminal is in between Al Mukalla and Zinjibar. Not so interesting there, but click for the link of the image.

While looking for the images of the port, I bumped into more interesting images or I'd say information regarding this LNG traffics and the business they are doing. (MISC and Yemen LNG Co. Ltd. - ini pun baru je tau nama Yemen company ni).

By the way, why do I trouble myself, getting myself busy looking for the images of the locations and the ports he's going to? Bukan ape, I'd like to look at the same sky, same ocean, same port, same tanks, same pipes and all the things that he's looking at or going to look at when he reaches the places. He gets to see it for real, let me see it just in the pictures. :")

And oh, by the way, I remembered when he told me, "port Yemen tak siap-siap lagi, that's why kapal tak keluar lagi," (He's been 'floating' in Miri for 2 and half months - beginning two weeks before Aidilfitri). Now I just knew that Balhaf port was ready for the production of LNG on October, 15th 2009. Click here for more information. It's interesting to read!

It's a 4.5 billions investment and my man is involved in it? I'm proud of him! Even though he's not the owner of the vessels involved or the port itself. But he's having his hands on completing the project. Erk ~

bonk! bonk! make way pleeeaaaseee!!! dong! dong! knocking the body of the vessel. "sayang, I know you're in there!! hi!!" image from here .tq!

But no, he's not there in the black tank. He's down further in the water, in the hull. That's where he works. :)

When Seri Balqis reached Balhaf, I believe that the LNG will be piped up into Seri Balhaf - the vessel owned by the Yemen LNG Co. Ltd. That means, he's not going to the USA for further LNG traffic, I supposed. Seri Balhaf will do it. So sayang, nanti boleh balik cepat!!

This is Seri Balhaf, Seri Balqis's friend. He's a vessel of the Yemeni Governent. There's something about this boy. Want to know more about him? click here!

see? "Port Kelang" rubber stamp on his body. Is he built in Kelang or Japan?

Jalan-jalan

2009-12-11T21:00:00.003+08:00

Yo! saye baru balik dari berbowling dan membeli-belah ringkas.

Ok...

Aku pun taktau la kenapa aku seronok evrytime nak berbowling padahal aku tak pernah pun menang kalau berbowling. Jangankan menang, jatuhan pin ke-2 tertinggi pun jarang-jarang je. Mungkin itu lah dia salah satu game yang boleh dikatakan semua orang suka main or yang boleh dilakukan secara spontan lepas jalan-jalan di mall ataupun makan ataupun bershopping. I'm just not good at indoor games. Lainkali kalau nak ajak aku main, ajak la main netball ke, paintball ke, wall climbing ke. Ala..mana-mana yang outdoor sikit la. Hah, kat situ, barulah terserlah ketangkasan aku yang taklah seberapa ni :P. Tadi memang lah aku kalah. Jatuhan pin tak sampai 100 pun. Tak macam dulu. Actually I was thingking of going for archery. Aku agak yakin yang dekat bowl lanes tu ada archery. Tapi eh aku lupa daa..yang ada itu ialah bowl lanes yang di Megamall Kuantan. Warga Kuantans or kawan-kawan yang pernah buat Pre-Degree ngan aku kat Kuantan dulu ~ ingat tak? Betul la kan kat Megamall tu yang ada tempat archery kan?

Lepas tu, Pergi Guardian plak. Ini lagi satu tempat yang aku alah sikit selain dari Watson's. Bak kata Siti Adeb, tak pernah lagi beliau jumpa orang yang akan berbelanja agak banyak kalau masuk ke kedai-kedai macam ni walaupun hanya singgah - singgah saja. Iye. Itu lah saya. Entah macam-macam menda saya beli. Kadang-kadang benda yang tak berfaedah pun. Hihi. Tadi berhabis agak banyak la jugak membeli food supplements dan juga, hand sanitizer yang Eskulin tu. Ha, sekecik-kecik tu pun aku beli je. Kalau ikutkan, Eye Mo moist dan beberapa benda lain seperti berus gigi, feminine wash, dan ape tah lagi aku dah ambik dah tadi tapi letak balik sebab rasa-rasa macam tak cukup bajet je. And the most important thing is, I came to my sense that I don't really need them pun. Bagus tak?? ::D Tapi ada jugak barang yang perlu tadi. Err.. tapi takpe la. Hold back dulu. ;P. Tunggu last gaji masuk next week kot. InsyaAllah..

Baiklah. Saya nak err..saya nak buat menda lain plak..

Oh, malam esok ada appointment di 'Spa Q' pulak. Terlupa ada sehati berdansa. Orang tu kata malam esok free, saya pun on je lah. Ish!

Tersekat

2009-12-10T13:20:00.001+08:00

saya rasa nak meletop!!

I just feel bad after letting someone down. But I need to tell the truth. I deserve it.

Tapi sekarang hati saye gundah gulana. Campur pulak dengan paranoid. Ugh!

Bebelan Rawak

2009-12-10T00:12:00.005+08:00

Malam ni saya pegi McD untuk mendapatkan Prosperity burger yang dah lama sangat dah diidam-idamkan disebabkan tak berkesempatan nak menjamah beliau. Tak, bukan nak cerita pasal Prosperity burger. Semua orang dah tau kot rasa dia.

On the way balik tadi, ternampak la sorang pakcik ni menunggang motor dengan anaknye membonceng di belakang. Anak pakcik ni bukannye besar pun. Ada la dalam size budak-budak umur 4-6 tahun (aku taktau nak cakap size budak-budak zaman sekarang. Macam ramai je yang dah oversized. terlebih zat barangkali). Masa nampak tu, teringin je nak cakap,

"aii, pakcik? pakcik sorang je ke pakai helmet? anak pakcik ni kepala dia kebal sangat ke?"

Bukan la saye nak mintak something bad happens to them. Tapi tidak ke bahaya tu pakcik, kalau tiba-tiba anak pakcik tu termengantuk ke lalu tersengguk ke belakang dan terlepaskan pegangan tangan dia dari pinggang pakcik yang tak berapa nak ramping tu?

Bahaya, bukan? Sangat Bahaya.

Satu lagi aku pantang ni kalau menunggang motor beriringan. (bengang2 ni kene cakap aku. tadi bengang sikit je). Perlu ke dik, abang, pakcik (biasenya kategori ni yang seronok seiring semotor ni) nak beiringan di tengah2 jalan? Bukan ke korang semua nak pergi ke tempat yang sama? So apa kata bila dah sampai destinasi nanti, hah sembang lah sampai tak sedar motor kene curi pun. Kalau pun korang bukan ke destinasi yang sama, silalah consider pengguna jalan raya yang lain. Perlu la kan nak lapangkan jalan di depan kamu tu selapang-lapangnye. Laluan motor kan kat sebelah kiri jalan? Bukan SEPARUH kiri jalan.

Dah lah. Nak tidur.

Aku memang cepat baran kalau aku memandu seiring dengan orang yang ntah ape-ape yang melampau! Tapi nasib baik lah aku dapat mengawal baran itu dengan jayanya sekali.

My Issue

2009-12-09T19:25:00.003+08:00

Toldcha, I'm quite half of a paranoia.
When significant friends of mine act strangely,
I'll be pointing my finger to...

....

....

....

no, not you.

to myself.

At the end of the day, I'll get my heart and mind aching. Miserably sometimes.

Dong Dong!

2009-12-06T15:10:00.004+08:00

My cat died and I quickly poured myself some gin
Did she die from old age or was it for my sins
God I loved her oh so much
Miss her little kitty touch
Does she miss me does she care
Oh I miss her kitty stare
Do you have a little time
Would you like to ease my mind
Talk for hours and never stop
Chop your head off
Be a lighter person
Brighter person nicer
But you've heard it all before

So ding dong
There's the doorbell hello man in white
He's gonna make you all well
Getcha through the night
But hey now
You don't feel better
As you take your fresh bromide
Maybe this man of letters lied

Let me tell you 'bout a dream I had the other night
You were in it boy you sure gave me a super fright
I was walking down the street
Downtown by the DMV
You popped out behind a door
It was odd you were on all fours
Do you have some time to spare
You were barking at a bear
It said hey you'd better stop
Chop your head off
Be a lighter person
Brighter person
Nicer
But you've heard it all before

So ding dong
There's the doorbell
Hello man in red
He's gonna make you all well
Getcha into bed
But hey now
You don't feel better
As you wake and slowly rise
Maybe this smooth jet-setter lied

Stick around one minute more
I'm smarter than you think
Do I sound like an old bore
Oh man it's just the drink
I didn't always hit the gin
There were times when I fit in
They'll never know how much I tried
Did I tell you my cat died
Do you have a little time
Would you like to feel sublime
Run away and never stop
Chop your head off
Be a lighter person
Brighter person
Nicer
But you've heard it all before

So ding dong
There's the doorbell
Hello man in black
He's gonna make you all well
There's no going back
But hey now you don't feel better
As you drift off in the tide
Maybe this jack the ripper lied
And you died

2009-12-03T02:14:00.002+08:00

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

Hide and Seek not.

2009-11-28T23:15:00.003+08:00

Dua kanak-kanak sedang bermain sorok-sorok.

Adik: Aunty, kakak mana??

Aunty: Taktau.

*kakak menyorok di sebelah kerusi yang makciknya duduk tu. Adik tak nampak. Tiba-tiba kakak ketawa dan keluar menyerah diri*

Adik: Hahahahaha...kakak, kakak! bagi adik menyorok pulak. Kakak kira!

*Kakak pun kira, adik pegi menyorok*

Kakak: ...9, 10. Dah ke beluuummm??!

*adik menyorok di tempat yang sama kakak menyorok, "daaaaaaah!!".

Sekianlah permainan nyorok-nyorok 5 minit.

Dulu Lain.

2009-11-28T01:22:00.004+08:00

Sedang main-main PC yang kat rumah ni, terjumpa 1 folder bernama 'LUMUT 09'.
Terjumpela gambar time baru-baru nak start kerja kat Seri Iskandar dulu...

di sini pun dah nampak perbezaan yang agak ketara...
oh..<3!

di sini juga...

I can see the differences between now and then T.T

Kesimpulan: Mesti mulakan gaya hidup yang baru - gaya hidup sihat. *sangat terasa perbezaannya! kelihatan juga. haihs..*

ramble mamble

2009-11-25T17:07:00.003+08:00

Oh, my heart is rambling now.

Nah, it has nothing to do with the previous posts.

Hurmm...maybe it is because I'm sleepy.

And thinking of the fact that I need to pack, and yeah, I mean to really really pack all my stuffs and leave. Plus, I need to think of going back to my hometown and to get here back for Monday, the last day.

The facts are:

1) I don't enjoy packing and unpacking (maybe soon)

2) I too, do not enjoy traveling back and fro in like, what? 2 days?

Just by thinking about it makes me tired already.

He Called, She Called

2009-11-24T23:00:00.002+08:00

He called
She was asleep; talking subconsciously.
Oh, she's not feeling well.

He called
She was bathing; he's waking her up.
It's a morning rush.

He called
She was driving; furiously crossing the highway.
She wanted to reach first.

She called
There's no answer; he's at work.
Let him be.

He called
They talked; hardly.
It was noisy there.

She called
He's not answering
There's no connection.

.............................. ... .... . ..... .. .

There will be no talking; tonight. So suddenly.

There He Goes Again

2009-11-24T18:53:00.004+08:00

from Miri...

today to Singapore...

and to Fujairah; scheduled on 1st December.

My sailorBoy has started his sailing again. May all the crews are blessed with good condition, safe journey and health out there.

Au revoir, mon cheri. My Nellie McKay's starts playing again.

I'm trying to make it easy. No. Not easy. I'm trying not to make it hard. That's how it's supposed to be :P

*Images from DigitalGlobe*

Bye Bye Later

2009-11-09T16:35:00.005+08:00

Things that I'm going to miss here :

1. The food. Nyummy!

2. The dirt cheap food. And services.

3. The places I went. And am about to go :P

4. The nymunny food.

5. The hassle free life.

6. The dirt cheap food.

7. The calm ambiance.

8. The best colleagues I have here.

My contract here is ending this month. By right, it ends during Raya Haji. Despite the well, maybe exaggerated inconvenience (to unleash the sissy mengada part of me), I have to admit, I love this place (this one is the real me. hehe). I love the moderate style of living here. Good places are around (still have time to explore, hopefully).

For now, we're doing our very own 'explorace'. I've only gone to few places - Kuala Kangsar, Teluk Batik, Manjung town, Lumut, Batu Gajah due to the time. Still looking for good places to go, tho. I only have 2 Saturdays left (excluding Raya Haji).

=)

2009-11-07T16:42:00.002+08:00

In Love, I am

2009-11-02T00:05:00.008+08:00

Well, hello. *stretching up fingers and neurons*

It's been a while since my last update. Been too busy and well, losing the muse to write, I suppose. Plus with the twitter , FB and all; everything is updated in a millisecond.

But tonight I can't help myself from writing about the most precious treasured someone. When people are in love, they tend to do any thing at all regardless of types of actions, places, words and you name it. Whether it annoys others or not, that's not the question. "I'm in love. We're in love," they'd say.

That's just what I am about to do.

Here, tonight, in the middle of the horrendous workloads and reluctance to start them again (even though I know I can finish it in 2 hours if I really put my focus on it), I hope that I won't take more hours to jolly around after this one. I am too happy and so in love with this man. =)

1. He loves singing. I know even now he is busy singing having a fun great time karaoke with his colleagues on that lonely ship. And my bad, that I forgot that he had once sent his recording long ago to me but I lost it. It was in my old phone that was lost after a pick pocket at Topshop; remember? That's why I can't remember it, boy. Plus, that song is not really my cuppa tea. Haha! I know you love me, right. *most probably he won't read this post. Don't worry, he won't know*

2. He will be worried about me if he knows that I am living alone in this house when all my housemates are not in. He's not worried if I am scared or whatnot as he knows that I'm used to stay alone back in Shah Alam. He's worried if I will not eat. He should, tho as I will not eat as much as usual when I am alone. I just don't feel like eating when I'm alone. I need a company. But sayang, in a way you should be glad as you know how much I will eat in a daily basis. You know I'm a food freak, don't you?

3. One more thing, it will be boring when your phone ringtone is like the office's phones ringtones. It's like, "breeep! breeep! breeep!", repeatedly. Unlike others, whenever different people call, the ringtone differs according to the person. Okay, my point is, I lost my micro SD that contains hundreds songs and pictures in it. Whenever he calls, there is no special song and picture no more. It'll be lame and lame. Okay, okay. My real point is, I also lost the other micro SD that he gave together with his Celcom Broadband where he keeps all the movies and also the setup for the broadband. It is his, not mine; the micro SD. But the other day, I asked him how did he get the setup for the broadband because 'I formatted the micro SD and lost all the data'. Heheh. It is not that, sayang. I lost your micro SD too. I'm afraid if he'll get angry as I am always not good with gadgets. But I'm sure he'll be cool about it this time. =)

4. Oh, last but not least. I've bought him a pair of jibbitz; star in shape written with 'sheriff' on it. I know he won't wear jibbitz only on one of his crocs unlike others who prefer to wear different one on each. He's got that OCD, I told him. I bought them months ago and I think, I repeat; I think they are there in my makeup bag. I got no time to mail it to you, sayang. I am no longer a student who got time to write you messages in a bottle, make you cards and mail it to you the way I did before. You love me nevertheless, I know.

Okay, that's it I think. I need to start marking the last batch and I hope to finish them tonight before opening another part of two thick envelopes with thick answers and hopefully readable and comprehensible ones. =)

P.S: I'm in love. With this man. =)) Okay, I'm still waiting for him to call as he told me. I bet he's down there singing their songs.

Antara Miri dan Seri Iskandar~

2009-09-30T02:22:00.003+08:00

...Eh. Antara Miri dan Seri Iskandar memang takde ape...tapi yang mungkin ada yang mana tak nampak dek mata kasar kita ialah gelombang frikuensi LAN dan WAN yang membolehkan kita berhubung sebegini rupa walaupun bernautika dan berbatu jauhnya kita.

Terima kasih kepada teknolgi yang ada yang memungkinkan kemustahilan.

Lihat, walaupun setelah beberapa kali mencuba, dapat jugak Olive dan Popeye bertemu mata di YM beserta Webcam.

Lihat di situ. Olive begitu gembira hingga hendak bergambar 'bersama' walaupun tidak lah bersama mana. Sang Popeye hanya mampu tersenyum gembira melihat perangai keanak-anakan Olive-nya.

Beliau masih lagi dengan posisi yang sama, yang masih tidak mampu mengikut instructions si Olive untuk bergambar bersama.

Nah. Akhirnya sang Popeye menunjukkan PEACE beliau kepada anda semua. Oh, terima kasih juga kepada Celcom Broadband berkuasa tinggi itu (yang berlampu biru dalam gambar) kerana telah merealisasikan impian mereka.

Terima kasih juga kepada rakan-rakan Olive yang telah memberikan sokongan padu dan cadangan bernas mereka. :D

Helpless means Helpless

2009-09-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost,
and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you
Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be a distant memory

*Soon I'll just be that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But I'm sorry that your intended
isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me
i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i don't know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair to stay
with something no longer there
its not that i no longer care
I'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

Zee Avi

Raya! =D

2009-09-19T23:34:00.003+08:00

Quickie on Ed Mubarak Eve...

1. This is my first time of 23 years that I did a very last minute shopping. I finalized my baju raya just this evening after searching for the best baju from Ipoh to Kota Bharu. (actually I was so impulsive while in Ipoh for the great offer of 100rm for a pair of ambroided kebaya and batik. Unfortunately, it is black. And my mother is against black on the first day of raya) * but Ma, you know that I love black*.

2. This is also my first time having to give away duit raya to my little cousins. There are 14 of them and err...I still can'r make up my mind about the amount to give. To my parents, my grandmother, don't worry. I've spared quite a lot for you. *ehems*

3. Oh, btw, actually my baju raya for tomorrow is slightly bigger than my perfect size. Thus I need to just bare with it for a day and after raya I will be going to alter the kain. Hurm..I think that's the price I have to pay for this last minute shopping.

4. My brother who works in Ipoh surprised us just now by pretending that he's coming back after the Ed prayer tomorrow morning but he called my sister to open the gate while all of us were preparing the dish and cutleries for tomorrow in the kitchen. My mother was the one who was clueless and really shocked while my father, hurmm..he just didn't get the joke.

5. My little brother's dream to win the "pakaian paling 'jangok' (cantik)" organized by the surau in our area is now collapsed. It was fist time organize by the surau committee last year in which my brother cluelessly won the award. But my brother is here already and well, lets see who'll be mandated for the award tomorrow. My little brother always want to be like my brother.

6. Oh...my mother's baju raya and my Kak Long's is one of a kind! I just don't get it as my mother's taste is always differ from her and not to forget, she always give bad comments on my Kak Long's choice of baju kurung. Ma, macamana Ma boleh sama taste ngan Kak Long ni?.

7. Oke. I think that's all for now. I need to continue my chores. By the way, jemputla datang ke rumah esok ye. Kami hidang rendang, ketupat(segera), nasi tomato and of course, chocolate cake. Raya kedua, tataw lagi oke.

Hurmm..even though we are all grown up and the spirit of Ed is never the same anymore, to reunite as a family although one of us is now in the in law's hometown, is always the gretatest gift that can only be felt once in a year. =D

And to all,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI DAN MAAF SEKIRANAYA DA TERKSAR BAHASA, TERSINGGUNG PERASAAN DAN TERLEBIH GURAUAN. oke? =)

Life Imbroglio of Wan Elly

2009-09-08T09:05:00.002+08:00

Well, I think I’m going to make this a custom – to have Tuesday blues.

This morning, while putting on make up and dressing up for work, it occurred in my mind that I’m turning into a negative person. I have no idea why did I say that about myself but I am no longer my old self. I would say that I am a positive person. I was born to be positive. I mean not 100% positive but I always managed to fake it until I feel it. There were times when I didn’t like things but I set my mind that it’s going to work well eventually and it did; or at least I felt okay about it. Even though it did not, still I could take it positively.

Somehow, that positive aura in me is decaying day by day. I become less positive each day. Why? It is not because of my bloody foundation keeps on spilling on my clothes every morning when I opened it. Even though that ruined my mood every morning a bit and yes, I cursed a little mild word about it. Well, not a good start of a day, I’d say.

It is not a wonder to me that someone can become negative about life. It could be things that happened not to be according to order, your supposition, and expectation for hundreds of times. But I wonder how one can make a total transition from negative attitudes about everything into positive when everything is not at all according to their expectation in which it is once upon a time was a big beef to them. I know few people with this ability. For example, a best buddy of mine, he was all negative about everything- life, food, events, yada yada yada. And he admired me for being so positive about everything. Everything to me was, “good!”, “Okay!” or “okay la..”, “relax” and whatnot. Now, he’s the one who tells me all those motivational remarks whenever I told him about my state. Luke, tell me how you did that.

I enjoy teaching. But sometimes I do resist to go to work. No, I’m not beefing about teaching. Wrong if you think I‘ve had enough of it. I have warm colleagues, good working environment, enthusiastic students, good place to stay with low cost of living in which I feel blessed for it.

But there’s one thing that I can never take it positively anymore. I think you can make a good guess about it. Yes. I’m not going to state it here as it'll brake the policy of privacy and confidentiality of a workplace (I learn this from 3R), even though I’ve told my friends about it. Haha!

Well, I think this is my life’s imbroglio for today. Now I am all hyped up to start marking!!!

I feel better so suddenly. =D

Oh, what an unbelievable mood swing!

Btw, Bobo, where’s my copy of the Secret? Sudah berbulan-bulan okei. I think I really need it now. Well, you know, just in case it happens again.

I am Blessed.

2009-09-08T01:29:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah...

I am blessed. Yes, I am.
Despite the hatred of my job. Eh. I don't hate my job. I hate the gaji system, okei. I love my students.

I am blessed.
To be surrounded by cool people where ever I go.
My sisters and brothers.
Cool friends in KL and Shah Alam.
Cool friends here in Seri Iskandar.
And even in FB.

Not to forget, this one cool and loving person on the other line whenever I need someone to talk to.

And a great man who loves me so much, more than his own life.

I am blessed to be surrounded by you guys. I really mean it.
You make my days whenever I feel down regardless of how close or not so we are.

I LOVE YOU.

I was told that..

2009-09-03T11:18:00.005+08:00

My heart now feels like this. click!

Yeap. She feels like my broken-heart song.

She is down and well, doomed. Nuff said.

Reason? "N/A, I think."

Mood swing? "Maybe."

Really? Sure? "Not really."

I have no idea! "Sure, neither I do." she replied.

Tuesday Blues.

2009-09-01T09:14:00.006+08:00

It is still drizzling outside. There's no sign of the sun coming up and to give me the energy. Ah, what a day. Sometimes I love rain. I love being in a car, driving in the drizzling rain, companied by the sound of R&B from the radio, alone or with someone else next to me. It has been a while and I miss that moment.

I didn't put on make up today. Just a slight colour of my Naturally Revealing and a few dabs of Berry Rich; to make it look innocently vibrant, coated with the Glossy Licious; minute dots of liquid blusher and that's it. I decided to have the bare eyes as I was so not in the mood for any outstanding features on my face. That is how actually my heart now.

I had a weird dream that I might consider it as a sign of my long thought last night before I managed to put my brain into hibernation. A short hibernation, to be exact. After two hours or so, I woke up of the dream for sahur. Having no appetite, I just had a piece of bread and a mug of coffee, alone and confused.

Here I am, in the office, trying to concentrate on my lesson plannings and well, marking the students' outlines. I know I need to try so hard to at least complete 60% of my tasks today as the weather is also not helping that much. And also the thought I had last night. It is about my life. "Am I doing the right thing?", "How my life is going to be for the next 4-6 months?", "Why should I have this thought, anyway?".

This is the Tuesday blues.

Anniversary(s)

2009-08-31T00:04:00.006+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN YANG KE-52!!
Happy Independence Day!!

Make your celebration meaningful with your patriotism.

Unlike others, I'm not celebrating this historical moment anywhere but to stay at home and am about to hit the bed. I'm going a to have a long journey back to Seri Iskandar tomorrow morning with my brother and most probably will be breaking the fast alone.

btw,

Happy 2nd Anniversary to us, sayang.

I know that you're taking the flight to Miri tomorrow afternoon and will be living in that humongous ship for 4-6 months.

Just so you know, I've never been this sure about my future. With you, everything seems so true and believable. It has been a meaningful-2 year with you sayang. I hope we'll be counting for more years and decades.

I love Malaysia! And I love this particular Malaysian too. You! ;D

Not Just Yet

2009-08-29T14:20:00.003+08:00

Well...

Currently I am numb.

SailorBoy is leaving. This time the ship is heading to Yemen and maybe the USA. Whatever it is, wherever the ship goes, the fact here is this is the beginning of waiting.

I don't hate waiting for him. I will always wait. But boy, I'm going to have a hard time missing you. And it is not easy when parts of your body are taken away from you. How are you going to live without them? Hardly. Especially when you are used to have them with you. All the time.

I Am My Mother's Daughter.

2009-08-25T01:35:00.007+08:00

I think I am slowly turning into my mom.

She will choose one night of her weeks or maybe month to sit on the chair with her directory and her phone in her hand. That is the time when she will attend all the massages that are stranded in the inbox or that need to be given follow ups. She will spend the whole night to call her friends and sisters whom she has not been keeping in touch with for like months, maybe. Or maybe weeks. She will laugh and draw her surprise face and whatnot in between the calls and conversation.

That's just exactly what I did just now (or last night, following the time frame). I texted those whom I have always intended to text but yet to do so, and called them who are maybe expecting for my calls.

See, I'm becoming like my mom. It's just that I don't have my own directory to store all my friends' number. I'll reach those who are in my phone's contacts list.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow....

2009-08-24T00:48:00.004+08:00

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

This evening on our way back to Seri Is we saw a rainbow when we dropped by Medan Gopeng fetching Adib. I was so excited upon seeing it after years of wondering "lama dah tak nampak rainbow...". It was like once in a blue moon event to get to see the rainbow today. :)

Out of all the colours red is my favourite.

There's nothing about me that makes people remember me but my shoes (think so). Colours is one of the ways to let them speak on my behalf.

Btw the connection here is really getting on my nerves!! Nitenite people! Till then when the connection is at the peak~

Body Massage, Anyone?

2009-08-22T02:14:00.007+08:00

Well, it's already 2.45 a.m and I am still awake. Not so fresh yet my eyes refuse to sleep. Ini kan malam minggu. Thus, here I have been seating watching online TV series that I missed for like 4 hours. By the way, actually there's one thing that I really really want right now. No, not shushi - had it for dinner with friends. Okay, advertisement: it is a 'Unagi Time' at Shushi now. There are many types of unagi shushi. It lasts until 31st August. To all unagi fans, go crash your Shushi King now~

Okay okay back to my wish.

Right now, how I wish I was at a spa having a deep aromatherapic massage for the whole body. Especially the legs and feet. Aaa..the waist too. And my back. There are many reasons for those muscles pain and whatnot - not having enough rest, not sleeping in a thousand ringgit bed and mattress and too much of walking. Well, walking around in heels or maybe stilettos is no easy walk. I'd rather say it is a quite painful walk at the end of the day. Plus, climbing up the stairs and the bumpy roads. Oyy, not to forget the cuts and blisters my shoes gave me for the first few times wearing them (I mean some of them. Some are good girls). My most valuable asset is now losing its values. Yes, I have another choice of not wearing it but I've spoken up my mind as it makes me look professional, elegant and well, maybe a bit stylish. To be honest, I feel sexy wearing heels. Ha ha!

Dah! Dah! Mari mari siapa nak bagi free whole body massage?

Eh. Eh. Dah pukul 3. Mari bersahur. Nanti siang nak puasa~

Yang Yang Yok!!

2009-08-21T00:31:00.003+08:00

Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan

Moga dapat berpuasa penuh kali ini...

* terasa nak makan sushi pulak. Ipoh, sila tunggu saya esok!
Dominos?

Transference

2009-08-16T12:49:00.006+08:00

I notice that...after one month...

I have started nagging in class.
I have started showing my anger to my students (I dabbed the duster onto one of my students' face as he was talking when I was busy explaining).
I even started to feel like throwing away the textbook that I am holding when the students are talking in my class when they are not asked to.
I have started feeling tired like my whole body is aching; during weekend.
I have started to appreciate weekends more than I thought I would.

I felt guilty for dabbing the duster part but to my defense, he deserved that, didn't he?

Those changes connote that I am serious about my job, am I not?. If only those students are serious with their studies.

Btw, we still haven't gotten our first pay. How am I going to survive? I'm still alive and having enough of everything that is necessary, kudos to me. Even though I still feel that I need more than that.

Oh, I love my life. I'm serious. Alhamdulillah.
I love living in Ipoh and Seri Is. Alhamdulillah. Eventhough sometimes I am immuned already with things that are offered in Seri Is.

But thanks to Adeb and Moon who are always making me happy.

And get to spend weekends in Ipoh is more than enough to me when there is nothing to do in Seri Is without the transportation and maybe, entertainment. Thanks to Moon and Kakteng for having me in.

P.S: Most probably we're going to the UTP Convo Fair tonight. New thing that Seri Iskandar has to offer. My mentor, whose husband is the staff there said there are many fun things that I might like there. Lets see how fun it is tonight.

Kuala Kangsar I

2009-08-09T18:46:00.004+08:00

At Medan Laksa dan ABC in Kuala Kangsar you can get...

...this ABC and...

this cendol...for less than RM3. And...

this delicious laksa for RM 2.20...

FOR two! Yes RM2.20 for two plates of laksa!

I had a fun trip in Kuala Kangsar. Thanks to Moon for taking me there. In Kuala Kangsar I got to see the legendary MCKK and Masjid Ubudiah. The mosque is so beautiful and the domes are covered with pure gold. The interior of the mosque is also beautifully built by black and red marble. We also went to Galeri Sultan Azlan Shah.

Oops! I got to go! More reviews and pictures in my next post okay.

Hallo. I'm Still Alive.

2009-08-07T09:11:00.009+08:00

Hallo again...

It's been a while since my last post. I have nothing much to say here, I suppose; as I usually share everything with my lovely friends whom I get to laugh and be crazy together. Well, maybe I blog when I have nobody to tell my story to. For example right now, I am alone in my room, my roomate (mentor) has a morning class this morning; so do Adib and Moon whose classes are also at 8 a.m. And I, I have nothing today! My 9 a.m class is canceled for my students are scheduled to go for their site visit. Meanwhile, the meeting that was supposed to be in the afternoon was also canceled. Thus, here I am, alone, got nothing to do or maybe refuse to mark the essays as I am so damn sleepy and can't even think straight! And oh, I am hungry too!

But finally it is Friday. Fridays are always the most dearly day for those who are working. Well, sedar tak sedar dah sebulan kerja ni. Through out this one month, I am positive to say that I have changed a lot, in so many ways. I don't know where to start but the most obvious change is that I have started to send my clothes to the laundry for wash and yes, for ironing. Yes, all my baju kurungs for next week are at the laundry. Pemalas ke? No lah. I am too tired to stand there ironing my 5-7 outfits to work. I chose to do a marathon ironing as I realized that to iron every night is quite tedious and I might possibly change the plan to iron my clothes the next morning in which I am afraid I would wake up late. To play safe it is, I choose one night to stand there, ironing everything.

Food. During my first few weeks here, I was so amazed with the food here. I was thrilled to try different eating place and food as I am sure that they would taste good. Don't get me wrong. The food here is still good, delicious and nyummy. Maybe it is me who's getting bored of eating outside. I want to eat at home. Something that we cook ourselves. Okay, waiting for the first pay to get the stove and other home appliances. Cepatla gaji!

Adeh~ Laparnye! Oh, this weekend I'm going to Moon's nenek's house in Kuala Kangsar. She's taking me there to try the famous Laksa. I don't know how famous it is but the Perakians said it is nyummy. So, I am on again for food hunting! She's also taking me to see the beautiful Msjid Tunku Ubudiah. Just so you know, I am actually a big fan of art. I don't speak art, but I do appreciate it. I love monuments, buildings - modern and old. Sounds like I should have changed my major earlier. So I am looking forward to be there. I even heard in Tronoh itself there is one place where all the old buildings are located. That area is very old even a filming production chose that place for the setting. I shall try that place too.

Okay, it is almost 10 now. I am going for breakfirst with Moon after she finished her class. Today, I promise myself to plan my lessons for next week. (*puke!puke!*) I mean the whole week for next week. I am packed with replacement classes!! Adoyaiii!!

P.S: I love my job. I really do. I love my students. They are fun. eventhough ada yang perangai macam ta*i

During Sick and Healthy

2009-07-28T19:04:00.006+08:00

Aku cranky bila aku mengantuk tapi tak dapat tidur.

Aku jadi degil bila aku sakit. Aku tak suka makan ubat dan aku takut jumpa doctor.

Aku jadi semacam kurang asam kalau aku penat gila babeng tapi ada orang yang semacam nak gurau-gurau manja tak bermunasabah dengan aku.

*Erm..baru aku sedar aku ni sebenarnya moody dan agak mengada-ngada orangnya. Tapi kalau dengan dia saje.

Tapi aku tak perlu risau lagi. Aku tau seorang lelaki yang mampu melayan semua karenah aku ini dengan jayanya. Seorang lelaki yang tahu menjaga aku bila aku sakit tapi tak sedar diri degil. Seorang lelaki yang tahu aku perlukan masa untuk tidur sekejap demi menghilangkan perangai cranky aku itu.

Dia...

Mohd Azrin bin. Mohd Azhar

Aku nak kawen dengan dia. Walaupun dia berperangai seperti ayah-ayah ketika bertegas suruh aku makan ubat dan marah aku kalau aku mengada-ngada, aku tetap nak kawen dengan dia. Sebab aku tau, dia akan menjadi seorang Ayah yang baik untuk anak-anak aku nanti. InsyaAllah...

P/S: sekarang aku masih demam lagi. Badan masih panas-panas. Tiada lagi orang nak berdiri sebelah aku dan tunggu(paksa) aku habiskan air masak sebanyak 4 mugs, dan jaga waktu makan ubat aku. Aku tak suka makan ubat. Kalau aku tak makan, ada dua je sebabnya. Satu, sebab memang aku terlupa dek ketidakprihatinan aku. Dan dua, sebab aku memang saje-saje taknak makan sebab aku tak suka makan ubat. Aku rasa pil tu macam tersangkut kat trakea aku je.

Ma! nak kawen!!

(rasa macam kena pergi clinic je lepas ni. pasti clinics di seri iskandar sekarang ni murah dengan MC)

Working but Fever?

2009-07-26T18:48:00.002+08:00

Ah ha! Now comes the latest valid news.

We need to go to work tomorrow! Yay!

But I am now DEMAM. So how? The VC said DO NOT come to the campus if we are having even a mild fever, cough or even flu. Not even a sneeze! With that I need to get an MC then.

Still Not Working

2009-07-25T01:31:00.001+08:00

Hah! Latest news about our closed down campus.

This afternoon, I got a message from Adib telling that we are closing until 2nd August! A few hours later, my Coordinator called me to inform the not so happy news to us lecturers but the students.

God, we are paid based on our teaching hours, monthly. This is absolutely cutting down the pay kan.

Oh oh, no self-indulge is happening in this coming weeks, I suppose. And one more, to replace the 8 days classes?

That equals to my 26 hours with 7 groups!

Oh, Bollocks!

2009-07-16T11:44:00.005+08:00

Well, I had a great time walking around the campus in my selipar jepun today! Yes.

How? No, the Pak Guards didn't scold me even though I look like much of a student. And other lecturers also didn't scold. But some students gave me the weird look.

I was heading to the printers to photocopy the exercises for my class this evening until I forgot something and went back to the room to get it. I got my stuffs and guess what? I left my keys on the table and I didn't notice it until the photocopy was done.

No fuss. I mean I was still cool. I went up to my room and look at my room mate a.k.a my mentor's time table. Okay, she's having class from 11 until 1p.m at the AC building. Fyi, the AC building is next to the APB, our building. But is is around 1 kilometer away, I think. Is it, Mun and Adib? I don't know kilometers.

Okay, the room is AC033. Ground floor! okay!

Then I walked down the stairs in my selipar Jepun for the first time in the campus, under the hot sun (I used the shortcut which is the road). Oh, not to forget, the thick grammar textbook and stacks of photocopied exercises.

I reached there, and knock the door. I opened it and what?! There was someone else in that room! Not the person I was looking for! Godemit! I must have looked at the wrong day of the timetable!

I went back to the APB, using the same road, with the same speed and nothing in mind. All I know was I need to get the key. Or else, I would have to loiter around having my works hindered. And by the way,my room is on the second floor and the nearest way between the AC and the APB is by using the stairs, and then need to pass the bridge that connecting the other wing of the building. And my room is in the center, i think. Yes, I climbed up the satirs again, and walked passed th wing.

Well, God must love me! I looked at the timetable on Friday! Hello. hari ni Khamis, okay. And the room that I was supposed to knock on was AC208. You see that '2'? Yes, It is on the second floor, at the other end of the AC building. (the building is the U shape).

Then, what? Ya lah! I had to walked down the APB, along the road and climbed that AC208!

Finally I got the keys. And lost a few kilos, I think. But thank god I was wearing my selipar Jepun. Or else, I must have fallen down the stairs!

Funny? If you were me, you will call it stupid. But yeah, everything is funny to me =)

I'm Lovin It!

2009-07-16T01:36:00.003+08:00

The more I teach, the more I get.

I mean, I have different styles and approach of teaching that is definitely improving than the previous classes of the same topic. In short, I'm enjoying every moment here. And the students are fun. I started to care about them as if they are my brothers and sisters.

Satisfaction? It is everywhere everytime I manage to do it wonderfully. =)

Man, me and random.

2009-07-14T00:32:00.006+08:00

"Marry me..."

Yes, boy. I've changed my mind.

"will you marry me? now?"

Being apart from you is my current worst fear. Me love you.

* * *

btw, the fog here is getting worse. I'm inhaling the fog right now, in my own room. It is heaty. I am tired even though I have taken my power nap (it's 4 hour. nap?). Oh, maybe I still need my weekend. Two days are not enough.

I want it back! Doraemon, you know that I'll never stop calling for you!

btw, gotten the finally finalized timetable. I have night classes! 'Yay!'

Jadi student lagi best! tsk!

Craving Moment

2009-07-08T01:18:00.004+08:00

1300-13-1300!

No they won't come.

I'm craving for at least the fries. Subway and sushi too. And nasi lemak kupang berlada in front of D.E!

Why am I asking for things that are not here when I don't bother when they are possible?

Most probably I'm going back to KL or Shah Alam this weekend. =)

Btw some senior lecturers said that we look like one of the students. And some students think we are the classmates. How old must we appear to look like a lecturer then? Huhu!

And..I think I'm going to lose my feet with the heels and the walks. my legs are aching up to the butt!!

oh I'm looking forward to go to school. I mean the school school. I heard that the posting list will be out in November. I want to be a school teacher lah.

Day 1 huhuhu

2009-07-06T23:30:00.006+08:00

*AHAHHAHAHAHAH*

Okay it is funny that I have started my day as a lecturer. Oh I prefer to call myself a student lecturer as I am still learning to suit myself with the title. Gosh! I felt like a student everytime we met other lecturers a.k.a our colleagues. Oooh. So funny.

I am yet to enter any class since I've burnt my both classes today. First morning class due to the briefing - submission of the timetable; (this lappy's comma is broken); our mentors and the room that we need to share with as they couldn't find any room for us yet. I was so pening with too much information at one time and met so many people that I couldnt even lock in their names! Also penat walking in my heels and searching for the classes. And I was sweating like a pig!

Actually I have written so many things here but due to the macam harem Celcom Broadband connection; (even my 3G connection pun like semacam baik takde phone. Nak call out or in pun mcm ow my gawd~); everything is gone! tapi thank you Moon bagi pinjam! =) Tapi ngaper celcom nye connection macam harem?

But as an accident prone I always am I nearly fell down the stairs. Thank you.

And oh yesterday (Sunday) we went to Lumut and did our housewarming shopping in Manjung. My brother took us there. And my mom insisted to visit my brother's base in Lumut. It was so amazing looking at the camp and the ships there!

Basically I am in search for a good spot to eat. So far I think that mamak next to Rahmah punya maggi goreng and teh tarik boleh tahan sedap la. And I noticed that Rahmah mini market in cheaper than the Halida.

And oh; I also concerned that there are so many cats died on the road. On my way to Lumut I saw like 5 cats mati. I think the cats here love to play by the roadside. Last night after having our dinner at the mamak; Mun almost rolled on a cat that was running across the road. Poor cats.

Okay okay. Actually I am so excited being here and experiencing my new life. Tomorrow is going to be another long day. I'm entering my ID class and EM class. Hello y'all! =)

Mari mari kita tidor. Esok sekolah!

P.S: esok pakai Alice ye.

Sekarang di Tempat Baru!

2009-07-05T01:41:00.006+08:00

Hello.
Saya sekarang telah pun selamat sampai di Seri Iskandar. Sementara keberadaan abang saya di sini, saya mengambil kesempatan untuk menggunakan broadband beliau untuk singgah ke alam siber ini. Hu hu (sebelum saya mampu membeli moden broadband sendiri atau dapat meminjam broadband si boyfriend).

So far, Seri Iskandar agak best. Bagi individu yang hidup secara sederhana, this is the right place la. Tadi, sejurus selamat sampai di bandar baru ini, kami makan kat Hentian Bas Seri Iskandar memandangkan itu sahaja tempat yang paling dekat. kemudian, kami singgah Pasaraya Halida untuk membeli sikit barang-berang keperluan. Kami pergi jugak kedai hardware (nama Sun ape tah) untuk menambah barang-barang rumah. Teka siapa yang paling teruja membeli belah di situ? Mak saya. Beliau memang suka pergi kedai-kedai barang rumah macam ni. Saya juga. Kakak saya pun rasa tempat ni ok. "Semua ada kat sini. Takyah pergi Ipoh la esok," katanya. Tapi saya nak pergi juga. Nak jalan-jalan sambil cari-cari barang seperti rak ke, selipar jepun ke. Oh, saya nak beli tilam!

Ternyata, saya tidaklah merasa begitu kerugian menolak tawaran INTEC. Sebab di Seri Iskandar, saya rasa saya akan dapat memiliki simpanan yang lebih dengan kos hidup yang agak rendah di sini. He he. Tapi untuk bulan pertama ni, sudah pasti lah kena belanja lebih untuk melengkapkan keperluan kan. Hurm.. InsyaAllah semuanya baik...(nak kumpul duit untuk sambung belajar, kemudian beli kereta, kemudian nak kawen okei. InsyaAllah) - sayang, you mesti suka part ni kan. Sayang, saya sayang kamu juga~. Sangat-sangat!

Isnin mula kerja. Nervous. Sangat-sangat jugak.
Oh, satu je lagi. Saya tak pasti adakah ini bakal menjadi pilihan tetap saya ataupun saya akan berhenti selepas satu semester dan menjadi guru sekolah?

New Life (style)

2009-07-01T15:27:00.007+08:00

Oh, I'm starting a new life in Sri Iskandar.

This is the beginning of _____ .

We shall leave that blank empty. It's too early to say anything about it. Lets pray for the good good things okay.

But I'm in love with Ipoh, already. =)

But... INTEC or Sri Is?

2009-06-28T22:49:00.003+08:00

Well, everybody is still talking about late MJ. TV and radio stations too.

This is one song of MJ that has a big impact to me. I was about 8 years old if I'm not mistaken when I first listened to the song and watched the clip.

It taught me to think about the world. About different people in different places. About animals too. What about them?

2009-06-28T12:54:00.002+08:00

Hoh, aku nak bercerita.

Tapi malas nak menaip.

Tapi Ili, thank you for the new pair. Hu hu~

=)

Daisy

2009-06-26T22:46:00.010+08:00

One day, i companied my mom to a plant nursery. She loves gradening despite of her not so green fingers. I love gardening too. Err..or, I love gardens. And if I were to plant anything in a garden (lets not tell whose garden), it will be daisies.

Daisies of alllllll colors!

And I was about to buy the seeds of my daisies and the pot. It was a rectangle pot that I think was so perfect for my daisies. But I didn't because my mom said, "nanti awak takda, sapa nak jaga dia? cerewet ni bunga ni,". Yes, I was still studying at that time. And my mom is kind of too busy to take care of all the flowers and the cats and the people in that house. That includes my little brother who is so called wants to have his own plant and bougth this one kind of plant when they went to Cameron Highlands without me. Yes, without me! Ithink it died already. Poor cute green plant. My sister said there is a garden of daisies but she's so clever that she did not snap any pictures of 'em daisies. Is that true? That there is a garden of only daisies there? Oh, I want to go to Cameron Highlands!

I'd be happy to recieve daisies rather than that of roses. I want to have daisies on my wedding (fantasy starts). I mean, a lot! I want a bed of daisies, not roses.

By the way, talking about the flower daisy, I love this flower the most. Oh, I think this is the only flower I love besides tulips. But i don't think we can plant tulips here. Thanks to our hot and humid weather (only).

see, cantik kan? uuuiii..gerammm!! geramm!!

How I wish I could have a house surrounded by daisies and tulips! Where's my genie?

And that drives me to fall in love with this Daisy. Yes, I am a perfume person. But I'm not the type who loves to buy perfumes. Hehs? So far, my sister and Happyness are the only sources of my perfumes. And mom too. Currently I have two of J.Lo's (happyness loves me to smells like J.Lo, I suppose), Tomy Hilfilger also from him, and casablanca from my mother. But, I'd love to have Hillary Duff's range of perfumes as well. That is because I love her. Ha ha! And I love perfumes that smell like foods. Any suggestions?

And errr... sometimes I wish my nick name was Daisy too (berangan tak sudah). My step cousin's name is Daisy and her plat number is DAY51. Tak achi kan? What numbers give you an ELLY, by the way?

Nevertheless, I don't like Daisy Duck, tho. I just don't like her. And Minnie too. And maybe I shall start digg Pushing Daisies. I never had the chance to watch this series!

P.S: I shall get the seeds one day. Wait up. Wait up.

*Lembut kan jiwa aku? cakap pasal munger~*

Fb Tag here

2009-06-26T19:36:00.001+08:00

take the quiz at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
then answer all the questionsthen paste it
i was tagged by Mohamed Falliq

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

To My HappYness.

2009-06-25T20:53:00.005+08:00

Teee heee hee. =D

I am happy as my HappYness is coming back for good. I mean he's coming back for a 3 month-break. I can't feel any better and relieved as he is safe through out the sail and now coming back to the main land. I'm going to arrange my schedules of interviews and whatnots ;and he will need to settle his stuffs and the new course. Whatever it is, I am glad as seeing each other is not impossible anymore!

At least for 3 months!

*uhuuurrmm! clear thorat*

Dear HappYness,

Welcome home and do reach home safely. I've been waiting for this moment to come and it seemed He listened to me and granted my wish(es). Me so sorry for all the stupid(s) I've done upon waiting for you to really can come home (after two times of false alarm). And now, I'm sure I won't do such again because being with you is all that I need. My crankiness will be caged for several months or hopefully as you wished, forever.

*answering your phone call..*

Can't wait to see you, boy. I just can't imagine how to react when I see your face later. It has been 4 months since we looked into each others' eyes. I'm sure I'm going to be all shy and that butterfly in my tummy, she's surely going to fly and tickle again. Oh, I just can't wait for that very moment to come! Really, I can't imagine the smile that is going to crack when I see you. Will it be from ear to ear? And maybe that smile will go frosted on my face that people will give you weird looks. And also, maybe it comes together with a jig and giggles along way. Hihi. Take care. Me love you muchos. Cepat la oiii!

-your sweeTness-
*this is what happened when the phone line is barred. Need to send this big SMS*

Avoid H1N1

2009-06-25T14:22:00.002+08:00

Hurmm..now its your call. Wipe it on your sleeves/tudung or make sure to have tissue/hankie with you. =D

*picture from campaign poster in KPJ elevator.

Why?

2009-06-24T01:09:00.006+08:00

For you, my man.

If you happen to read this, do know that I'm so sorry for what we're having now. Every relationship has its ups and downs and maybe this is our lowest point. But it can't be this long, the silence. One night would be sufficent for us; usually. Been waiting for your call or SMS every night before resting my eyes with hopes that your call will wake me up later. This is akward, really.

I know you are there. You are reachable yet I am in no access to reach you.

I miss YOU.
P.S: You can call me anytime you're ready. I've had enough of this silence. Done mine. :(
P.S.S: Friends, could you please text him telling him this? Or maybe just tell him that someone is missing him so badly.

Dora the Explorer Masuk Hospital

2009-06-21T11:08:00.009+08:00

Admitted due to gland infection. Done CT scan and antibiotics drip.

Nasib baik ada misi-misi yang cantik dan cermat ni. Now I know why I can never be a nurse. But to wear the costume? Can..can..Huhu~

Cubaan Dora menjadi Hagemaru. Tak jadi.

The area of the gland infected.

Nama sebenar: Damia Athirah bt. Mohd Dzul Akmar. Umur: 6 tahun. Nama panggilan: Kakak, Athirah. "tapi ada kawan-kawan saya panggil saya Damia", katanya.

Disebabkan kakak masuk hospital, adik dipindahkan ke rumah makcik yang sorang lagi.

Kak rumah aunty chik, adik dapat main gitar. Goreng saje.

Achu dapat main transformers adik. Berjaya jugak aku bukak lori ni jadik robot.

Pagi tadi, bawak adik swimwim(swimming). And then ada seorang laki ni, tunggu kawan dia nak swimming sama. Dia break a conversation dengan aku.

"are you staying here?" kata beliau.

"no, my sister is." aku reply.

"what do you do?"

"still looking for a job. I mean temporary job while waiting for the posting list to be out"

"I see. What kind of job are you looking for?"

"teaching." with a sweet smile on the face.

"teaching? English?"

"yes,*giggles*"

"is he your yougest?" referring to my nephew who was happily swimming.

*krikkk..krikk..krik...*

"aaah. no, my nephew" with a funny smile.

* * *

Suka hati saje. Kalau yang ni last child, berapa lagi la anak kat atas aku ada kan? Tau la muka aku ni matang dan motherly. Ha ha. Tambah pulak muka baru bangun tidur dan mandi pagi tadi. Hu hu.

Bila aku fikir-fikir balik, ada dua implication yang boleh dibuat.

1. "oh, ok, he's cute, your nephew."

2."wow, he's your last child and you still have that body!"

I prefer to believe the latter. Ha ha. Vain, ok. Menyedapkan hati

* * *

Itulah orang kata, aura. Aura. Aura yang kita keluarkan mengikut watak yang kita mainkan. (Falliq, anda pasti lagi pro pasal watak-watak ni kan? hihi)Nampaknya aku lama sangat jaga budak-budak ni, kira macam aku dah jadi macam mak-mak dah. Ye la, hari-hari, budak-budak ni tak bangun lagi mak ayah depa dah keluar pergi kerja. Kira aku yang run the house sampai dari pagi sampai malam. Memasak, mengemas lapan kali sebab tak pernah nak kemas dengan budak-budak ni, melayan diorang ni kejap yang tu nangis kene buli, yang ni la. HUisshh..Dah macam mak orang kan? Aku berjaya mainkan watak ni nampaknya.

Sama la bila kita bawak watak sedih (sedang bersedih) orang akan nampak yang kita bersedih. Garang ke, perengus ke ape ke sama saje. Macam aku, aku tengah pegang watak Nanny yang dah ala-ala mak kan. So, nampak la keberjayaan watak itu agaknya.

Btw, esok kakak kena oprate. Harap-harap selamat. Amin~

Musical Films

2009-06-20T00:08:00.020+08:00

Been listening to Jim Sturgess. I watched Across the Universe on HBO this evening and fell in love with the story and that Brit. Ha ha. Have always loved the Brits for the accent. But from what I heard, Liverpudlian accent is not that pleased to be heard. Well, yeah. It is a little bit funny to my ears and quite difficult to understand. Fortunately my friend who lived in Liverpool did not pick up that accent. He speaks British English without any Liverpudlian's dialect. Just perfect!

I am fond of musical films. Starts with the childhood interest - the Sounds of Music, Moulin Rouge, Enchanted, Phantom of the Opera, and Across the Universe, the not so old yet not so latest movie that I have just watched. But I didn't enjoy the Spirit. It was a watse of time and money for the movie that day. Oh, and I didn't do the High School Musical. I have no idea why I am not attracted to that famous musical film. Seriously, I don't know.Hehs. And when I say musical films, it includes the Hindi movies which has been like years since I last watched them. The newcomers and the new style of saga are just not as good as the old ones, I think.

Watching musical films is like giving me the escapism and makes me understand the story more just by listening to the songs they sing as the flow of the story is told synchronizingly with the songs. It makes the plots more meaningful and interesting. I am amazed on how the songs are arranged to meet the scenes. It is somehow entertaining watching the people on the streets, the police, priests or whatever characters in that scenes were suddenly singing and dancing. It gives you the frantic ambiance of the story.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Several songs from Across the Universe that linger in my ears

*click the arrow buttons for more!

Basically, most songs in this movie are originated from the Beatles'. The characters resing the songs and Jim Sturgess has just stolen my heart! Hu hu~

Aku Yang Marah

2009-06-19T11:58:00.007+08:00

Oooh..marahnye aku!!! Seawal begini bikin hati panas saje! Memang merosakkan kesabaran aku. Dah la orang yang buat aku marah tu tak heran pun kalau aku marah. Lagi la naik gila aku kat dalam ni.

Tau tak, anak buah aku yang lelaki ni, dia pergi masukkan air dalam botol syampu aku!!!

Kimmeeeennnnnnnnnn~

Waaaarghh!! Geramnya! Tadi masa nak mandi, terkejut aku tengok syampu aku cair je. Sekali aku goncang botol tu bunyi macam air je. Geram je aku nak picit botol syampu tu nak make sure yang apa yang aku fikir itu adalah benar (dah tinggal separuh jugak la syampu aku akibat aku tak percaya kejadian tu dan aku picit, bukak cap ia dan tuang nak tengok secair mana syampu aku telah diperlakukan). Patutla hari tu aku pakai syampu mak dia pun cair semacam je. Aku ingatkan sebab memang syampu mak dia dah nak habis so mak dia taruk air. Budak kecit ni punya kerja rupanya. Dah la sympu aku tu baru lagi, banyak lagi. so wajar la aku nak marah kan? *panas hati lagi*

Lepas aku mandi, aku keluar, tanya budak kecit ni,

"adik, adik main syampu achu ea?"

dia geleng-geleng kepala. Aku panggil dia pergi bilik air, kasik tunjuk sikit botol syampu baru dia kenal itu syampu siapa.

Dia geleng-geleng kepala lagi. Aku tanya lagi,

"adik bubuh air dalam syampun achu ea?"

Muka terkantoi. Dia senyum je. Kimeeennn~

Geramnye aku!!

Ini la pesalah terbabit. Beliau seorang yang hyper active dan suka menyanyi. Buat apa pun nak menyanyi. Beliau juga suka melompat setempat dan melompat sekeliling rumah. Kalau tak lompat, berlari. Nak tengok dia berjalan, jarang-jarang sekali.

Selama aku berkecimpung dalam dunia Nanny ini. beliaulah yang telah membuat aku menjadi garang macam mak tiri. *still marah lagi hal syampu cair*

2009-06-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

"why should you feel miserable upon other's problems and messy life?"

A guy asked me.

Well, that's maybe I am a loving and caring person. I care about those I love. I care about other people as well regardless of who the people are. I can't be too ignorant when I know there's something I can do even if it is the least of it. I'll show my care even with a word becasue sometimes, that is all that person needs to feel better.

Appreciation. Learn to appreciate.

She's Back!

2009-06-18T23:31:00.005+08:00

Hello. Ermm..
I think I’ve ran out of drugs. I realized that I was so high~ and behaved so strangely for the past few days. However, now, at this very moment, I think I’m loosing my “YES Man!” syndrome. Gosh, my life is so infected by this movie. But it is a good movie, I shall say.

When I am in that happy syndrome, I tend to do things in a whim. Yes, I don’t think twice or thrice. It is like I am lost in my own world. I'd laugh easily to small occurances as I am in a super duper happy mood. I’d say hello to random people which in the contradiction of that I am a shy person. I mean, not that shy. Down to earth, maybe. Hehs. (okay, this may be due to some leftovers). Ignore.

Hence, in this case, thank you for enjoying my vain posts that sometimes are over-rated and self-engrossed (I even hate it when i read it. Ha ha). Even though you never enjoyed it, hey ho!

*This sinus is giving me hoarse voice and oh, running nose! Come, come, who wants to help me wiping it?*

Now I'm back to normal even though it is fun to be a YES Man. I'm glad.

Self Proclaim

2009-06-17T23:50:00.005+08:00

Well, I know this is silly and irrelevant. But pardon me for I just love the fantacy fact of it. Ha ha!

According to "which celebrity would play you in a movie of your life?" from FB, mine is ...

Rachel McAdams

You are both sexy and the girl next door. The ultimate male ideal. You blend sensousness with wholesomeness in a way no else can. You're the kind of girl a man want to take home to momma and simply take home....

I love the first sentence most *cough* and I am fond of her. So let me just keep this result here than let it trails in that cyber quiz world of Fb. Woooho!

*the perk of 'gedikness' is on for the moment. Sorry*

Huuuuh. Aku Tak Tawu...

2009-06-17T16:53:00.002+08:00

...kenapa aku rase aku semakin girlish dan gedik dari sehari ke sehari?

Di manakah kelelakian aku?? Masalah hormon ke?

OOhh tidakk!! Pulangkann!! Tak suka~

Mari Kawan-Kawan...

2009-06-17T16:21:00.007+08:00

..kita main masak-masak.

Memandangkan macam banyak je orang request resipi cuppycakes yang saya show off kan hari tu, ini dia resipi nye yang kakak saye ambil dari website mana, saye pun taktau.

150gm mentaga/butter/planta
185gm tepung naik sendiri (try guna blue key. macam best)
150gm gula kastor
1/2 sudu teh soda bikarbonat
3 biji telur
1 sudu teh esen vanilla

Cara-cara dia macam biasa je. Basic buat mana-mana cake pun. Butter ngan gula dulu, then telur dan esen vanilla pastu baru isi tepung sikit-sikit.

Topping dia:
250gm butter (1 ketul buttercup tu)
250gm icing sugar (kalau nak kurangkan manis, boleh kurangkan lagi ikut suka)
150gm shortening

mix butter dan shortening sampai dia jadi fluffy. Masukkan icing sugar yang dah diayak. Icing sugar diayak so that dia tak berketul nanti. Gaul semua sampai betul2 ringan. Basic dia putih. So kalau nak warnakan sesuka hati, just divide mengikut suka.

Lupa pulak. Adunan ni untuk 35 biji yang kecik. Kalau agak-agak cup anda besar tu, dalam 20 biji lepas kot.Mixture ni adalah yang paling basic. So, kalau rase nak ada perisa sikit, boleh je tambah ape-ape. Contohnye, scrape sikit kulit oren untuk cupcakes perisa oren, tabur chocolate chips, taruk jam ke kat tengah-tengah. Anything! Selamat mencuba!

I wonder...(this is not a review)

2009-06-17T01:31:00.007+08:00

What if I were a boy? I mean a male. I happened to watch Lalola the telecomedy that replacing never-ending Marina on TV3 this evening. Well, having too much time in my hands, discovering new shows and series is part of the activities. I’m not an ardent follower of this telenovela but I know the gist of the story enough. And the soundtrack of the story is somehow catchy and funny.

Man, I want that shoe with red base!! Saw it in Wickerpark too*

The story is about a man who was cursed by a witch summoned by one of the admirer who seemed to be heartbroken of the guy who is so called a womanizer. The witch transformed the guy into a woman so that he could feel whatever other women feel when they are taken for granted, in general. Yada yada yada I think that's how it sounds. Go google or wikipid yourself if you wish to know the details :)

Okay, in this story, Lola(the transformed man into woman) had difficult times adapting to high heels, menstruation, shaving or waxing and all other women’s stuffs. Interesting! Magically, the witch turned Lalo(the real man) into a stunning beautiful woman (Lola). Should I were transformed into a man, how would I look like? Would the male version of me looks as good as ~~I am~~ Lola or somthing like her? Yeah, my eagerness of silly curiosity absolutely kills the cat! Is there any software that can generate our face into something else when is combined? Anyone? How I wish I could find one!

But basically I think, some features of mine looks like men's features. Wait a minute. I mean some features are stronger than any other women’s. I am in no intention to scare the blokes around me. But I think my jaw line is quite strong for a woman. Or maybe average woman. It is sharp and errm..strong like some men have. My friend said my jaw line looks even stronger than my little brother’s. Hehs. But I’m not quite sure if I have entirely an athletic figure or a mixture of the hour glass figure. But well, my height is enough for an average height of a man, I suppose. And maybe with slight compression here and there. Ha ha!

All in all, I think to take care of oneself for a man is not as tedious as a woman who needs to take care of the long hair, colouring the face with make up here and there, fake eyelashes and whatnots, on which area to emphasize to look stunning, to get balance in heels, to find the right size for the upper undergarments, and oh, menstruation. Another thing is the outfit. We have like hundreds to thousands designs for just a specific part of clothing, you name it; designed by the designers with various tones of colors for women but the same old style of clothes well, with maybe slightly different placements for the zips and buttons for men just to make it fresher and for a new look. Or maybe the cutting can be slightly different but still with the same style. Got my idea, don't you? Just look at any awards on tv where basically men will appear in black or white or any different colors of tuxedos, i repeat, tuxedos and women with fancy schmansy dresses and some are not even called dress. Ahs, lets learn serious fashion some other time.

Aha. But one thing I am curious to death and will never understand. How does it feel to be kicked in the balls?? It looks like half to death. Does it really?

Ibu Saya

2009-06-16T01:05:00.006+08:00

Tadi aku urut/picit tangan mak aku, sapu-sapu minyak sikit. Maklumlah orang tua, tangan pun dah lenguh-lenguh kan. Masa aku khusyuk memicit-micit tangan mak aku tu, baru aku perasan yang warna kulit tangan kami sama (mak aku berkulit sawo matang). Kawan-kawan, janganlah bandingkan warna kulit tangan aku dengan muka aku yang agak sedikit gelap daripada anggota badan aku yang lain ye. Memang kulit muka aku dah agak 'ireng' dek terlalu aktif berko-kurikulum di sekolah dahulu dan alpa tentang penjagaannya. Kaki, tangan dan badanku lebih digemari warnanya. Berbalik kepada tangan kami. Warna dah sama, sawo matang (aku suka!), tapi tangan tua mak aku dah agak berkedut-kedut dan urat yang berwarna hijau pun berkelihatan. Tangan aku pun nampak urat juga, tapi kulit tak sebegitu, masih tegang dan lembut lagi. Kuku tua mak aku dah nampak sedikit keras berbanding kuku aku yang masih berkilat digilap dan cantik terbentuk. Aku picit dan picit, urut sikit-sikit sambil melumurkan minyak angin (aku memang dari kecil pandai mengurut, kata mak aku. Tapi bila dah besar ni malas pula. Jahatnye aku dah besar-besar ni). Setiap kali aku picit tangan mak aku, matlamat aku ialah supaya nanti jari jemari boleh diregangkan dan berbunyi detakan tulang jemarinya. Tapi kali ni kurang bunyi pulak.

Kesian, mak aku dah tua. Panggillah beliau Cik Yah ye. Nama beliau Shamsiah Muhamad. 'Shamsun' bermaksud matahari. Padanlah dengan peranan beliau dalam hidup aku sekeluarga. Rumah akan rase sunyi dan tak berseri kalau mak aku keluar out station ke waktu beliau bekerja dulu, keluar ke kedai ke, mahupun ke belakang rumah melawat nenek.

Mak aku seorang yang tabah. Pada aku, beliau boleh digelar 'Wonder Woman' atau 'Bionic Woman'. Beliau sangat hebat di mata aku. Aku agak berbangga sebab rupa aku ada sikit-sikit iras mak aku. Tapi mestilah mak aku lagi cantik dari aku. Maksud aku, ada dalam beberapa gambar aku, aku dapat tengok persamaan wajah kami dari sudut-sudut tertentu. Paling ketara ialah dari atas, di mana waktu itu ialah ketika kenduri khatam al-Quran. Gambar aku tunduk mengaji ada iras mak aku (lensa dari depan yang menampakkan batang hidung dan kening aku sahaja). Aku pun tak tau nak jelaskan dari sudut mana tapi aku tau aku ada iras beliau di situ. Aku suka hidung mak aku. Kalau boleh aku nak ada hidung macam beliau punya. Gilanya aku ni.

Aku juga agak berbangga kerana aku dapati ada beberapa persamaan dari segi personaliti dan stail antara kami berdua. Ehh, ada la. Tapi aku agak kagum dengan diri aku jugak, walaupun aku selalu juga buat perkara yang tidak disukai beliau mahupun mana-mana ibu di muka bumi ini di belakang beliau, aku tak pernah meninggikan suara kepada beliau. Aku ni jahat pun berpada-pada.

Yang paling penting, mak aku telah melahirkan kami tujuh beradik. Hebat kan tu? Tujuh kali kesakitan! Dan aku kesakitan yang ke-6.

Ehh. Terasa rindu pula dengan mak saya.

Fresh From the Oven

2009-06-14T16:06:00.003+08:00

Tadaaa~
Setelah setengah hari membengkokkan badan membuat cupcakes...
Pening-pening kepala menengok kaler-kaler untuk mencantikkan cupcakes dan mengcover cacat cela meraka. Hu Hu...

Ini la umur saya sekarang!

My handwriting is better on cakes. Now you can imagine it on papers!

La~ la~ la~

Cupcakes ini tidak menggunakan fonden cream. Cream biasa saje. Hommade by the amateurs (that's me). My sister is always an ardent baker whose dream is to open up a bakery one day.

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Btw, korang penah tak hilang tahi lalat (moles)? So far I've lost two moles on my body. Err..one on my face which is currently scrapping out. My sister said, if it can fade out, then it is not a mole. Tapi, masalahnye, tahi lalat ni dah berada lama kat badan dan muka aku. Yang kat badan tu dah hilang dalam dua tahun lepas, after like since forevre being there. Yang kat muka ni pulak (bawah dagu) pun dah sejak azali lagi berada di situ. Tiba-tiba dia naik macam jerawat dan boleh terpicit keluar pulak!! Hairan sungguh! So sekarang, no more mole on my chin! Hilang satu pemanis sudaa..

Okai. Mari makan cupcakes saya!

He He He

2009-06-13T16:21:00.009+08:00

Salut! Je te presente Nice, Paris! Can you see me there? In the polka dots bikini? Yes, according to my friend who's studying there, unlike Malaysia, the beach is covered with pebbles. Interesting!

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My, oh my. Ada ke aku pergi France? Mesti korang tak habis baca threads dalam facebook tu (esp. Mr. Falliq). As my post here is automatically posted in Fb, anybody who is trapped in this fraud too, please welcome to know the truth. Hu hu!

Falliq, sila rujuk status "rendang ayam for lunch" di profile saya jika anda terkeliru.

Tiba-tiba pulak ada orang percaya. Tapi bagus jugak kalau betul-betul jadi kan? Piji, you're gonna have a beautiful companion there. Wait up, mon amie, wait up. Haha.

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Btw, I'm in trouble now. I lost my tweezer. Daymn!!! It is something that I can't live without, no kidding. Here is the list of top mini tools/things that I can't live without:

1. Tweezer to pluck pluck! I prefer to pluck certain area than to shave. It is more satisfying, I believe to get a clearer and smoother surface. *details are not compulsory*

2. Body lotion. It is a must for me to apply on lotion on my skin after bath or before going out jollying. I know my skin is not as smooth as babies but at least I put an effort to keep it moist all the time. I even carry a small bottle of Nivea in my handbag eventhough I love my sherbetz yoghurt more (why don't they come in smaller size?). Hu Hu. Plus, to have lotion in your handbag is also good for girls on the go whose hair tend to get dried off or frizzy after a hectic day. You can apply a small dollop of lotion on your hair to cover up the flaws (tips from CLEO).

3. Nail clipper to keep off the claws and germs. I feel uncomfortable having long fingernails. Sometimes I grow them in purpose *cough cough* but more than often I prefer to keep them short, clean and neat. That would be when I am too busy to take care of them or in an emergency where I am heading to a function or maybe something important and find out my nails is like a caveman. That’s the time when my nail clipper comes to the rescue for I always have it in my handbag! To me, to keep my hands clean is very important. I won’t eat with my hands without washing it first or if desperately I can’t do so (no water supply, etc.), I won’t lick my fingers even though my favorite sauce left on it. (Kind of an OCD). I love guys with clean and neat fingernails too. Aww~

4. A packet of tissue paper to wipe wipe. You will see me with a piece of tissue paper on my other hand while I’m eating. I think I am the person who causes the restaurants owners not to put the box of tissue on their table because I’ll use more than other people can imagine just for eating. Sometimes, you will also see my one hand with a crumpled tissue in it. Ask sailorBoy what usually happens when he wants to hold my hand. One more item in my handbag!

5. Cotton buds or cotton swabs to keep my ears clean and for clearer sound system. When I was in high school, staying in a hostel, I would take my ample time not only for bathing but also after bath. I would take my sweetest time digging my ears with cotton buds to absorb all the wetness inside. I wonder how did I manage to live in such restricted schedule of a hostel life with my dawdling style of digging? Now, as busy as I am having too many errands to do, I’d service my ears whenever I feel closer to deaf. But as paranoia I am about my ears, the least frequent would be like once in two days. Clean enough, I suppose.*uhurm*

6. hairclips or headband. I can’t stand hair on my forehead blocking my eyes. That’s why I think I don’t keep fringe. But now, I don’t need those anymore as my hair is as short as a boy. Shorter than his.

7. Blotter. The more effective oil absorber than the tissue paper. Sometimes when my hormones go fluctuated, the oil is just so annoying and uurghh! frustrating as it will affect my pimples production, Inc.

8. Pen and small note pad. Well, this is to jot down important things in urgent and also can give a good hand to other people around me who in need of a pen and a paper. Or like my aunties said, it is common for teachers o have at least a pen in their hand bag. I am yet to be the one but it seemed my habit is a good practice for my future profession. Heee~

Okay, people. I'm not in France. Still in Malaysia, unluckily. Hehs!

Moments I miss

2009-06-12T15:52:00.010+08:00

As i browsed around my old lappy, old pictures caught my eyes. Very old ones...

When we could sit down and laid back, got nothing to do, camwhoring...

Hanging out, made pictures almost everywhere...

in the campus...

at the Mamak...

I miss those moments when we could sit down, relaxed...

without feeling bad about it. We felt good, instead. A bliss.

'I miss my long hair. I could do so many things with her. Hu hu

Ah. I need to buck up for my trip. Bye!