I believe that I am as jovial and happy as I always be because of these people whom I hang out with who are so helpful whenever I'm in trouble.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Well, 3 days to go, and we'll be in 2011.
I'm not going to talk about my 2011 resolutions. No, I haven't planned my 2011 yet.
However, my 2010 is the best year of my life so far. It's the new beginning, new transition which I think I did well.
2010 is the year where I began my serious career - teaching. I was ambivalent sometimes, at odd times, but I think I'm sure that this is the thing that I love doing. This is the profession that I just have to embrace. At times, yes, I felt like shit - I was busted, I taught them wrong things, I was lazy and demotivated, I was clueless, and whatnots. Despite the downfalls, there were more than often, I felt like they just can't live without me that made me felt like this is what I am meant to do, and somehow, I think that I belong to this place - my workplace. (and maybe I'm gonna stay longer here, let's see). I am so grateful to Allah...
2010 is the year in which I should be proud of myself. I don't come from a luxurious family, my parents would never pay for my petty trivial things that I want that they thought were not my priority. Yes, my parents have to control every single flow of the moolah, for they had to raise 7 children. This understanding 6th child seemed not to show rebels or unpleasant attitude if the wishes were not their commands. Somehow, I should be grateful this year, that I finally could be the one who is the resource of the family. I paid for the home groceries, I bought presents for my parents, brother and sisters, and I gave them pocket money monthly. I do it because I can afford it now. back then, I beg for money from my family (beg is too much of a word. ASKED) especially my father. I can say that I pay for my every single thing by my own, even though there were times where I was flat broke and must kept going alone. There were times where I just ate bread for one whole day because I have to pay for my rental house. I was too shy to ask from my parents, for it was quite a big amount of money. However, there were times where I made my friends and family happy when everything was on me. That's how I see it, money;come and go. Nevertheless, I can be proud of myself, for I can afford a simple cute car on my own, shoes, handbags; even though they are not from famous designers, pay for my bills, and an expensive phone, and still can live happily through out the month. I am so grateful to Allah...
2010 is the year that I could see that my life is leading to a better stage. I have found a perfect man of my life, whom I wasn't sure about living my whole life with in the past few months, and got the approval from my family.
By the way, my family is expanding now, where we're having a new pregger among us, which is my sister who just got married in June 2010. My niece was selected to become the school prefect, where the teachers thought she is responsible, smart and reliable to the school. I don't know, all I can say is I am so grateful to have this wonderful life with my lovely expanding family. I am so grateful to Allah...
2010 is the year where I've expanded my networking. I have new friends from other campuses, and we get along very very very well. I think my social skill is improved, the way I carry myself has somehow polished and I am more confident with myself now. I don't give a damn to whatever people might want to say, have said, or say about me, I will just live my life, appreciate every single petty things around me and go to those who care because that makes me happy. No matter how they want to provoke me, to trigger my dark side, be my pleasure, I'll handle with care. This is the year where I really really enjoy my life in my own way. I am so grateful to Allah...
Wow, 2010 is reaching the end. My life is now changed, better and happy still. Wow. 2010. It's like a total new dimension of my life as compared to 2009. Let's pray for these good things in us will still be with us, so that we can spread it to everyone inside the bubbles. InsyaAllah...
This is just a brief conclusion of my 2010 with no deep extensions. Playing with words is just not my forte.Maybe these are some of the things that I want, and the rest are Unexpected.
Okay, next! Buy a house, further my study, build a family. InsyaAllah. :)
P.S: I know that this post is so sudden. It popped out just like that. I forgot the sign in email of this blog until just now when it came flowing into my memory like a leaking pipe. Haha!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
this was 3 years ago (I was still young. and cute..and...)
counting for the next phase for this ship
Apparently none of us is a camwhore. Well, the camera doesn't love me tho. I don't remember having any latest photo together. Hurmm..
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Yes, my Angelfish, Mable. Haha..
Being a potato couch at home after work, my attebtion will be diverted not only to the TV, but also to the funny fishes in that tank, that is next to the TV. Everytime Boy makes that bubbles, I will think that he is hungry. No, he is not. He just love to entertain me.
Meanwhile, as for Mable, I found out that she loves Readhead. Yes, my orange cactus.
I found this funny, somehow. She will be floating, staring at Redhead, smwimming around, and come back to the same spot, to stare at the plant. Maybe one day I should move this plant to somewhere else and see what sill happen to her. Haha!
By the way, my Tiger Barb, which I am yet to give him a name, seems so sad. Actually he is a schooling fish. Hence, he will be sad when he saw nobody of the same species. Only once in a while he will be seen swimming around with Boy, the goldfish. But lately I can rarely see him. He would be found hiding behing the plastic plant I put inside the bowl.
Maybe, I should get his friends later. Wait, to get a school of Tiger Barb requires me a bigger tank. Well..maybe I shall trade him at the aquarium shop.
Meanwhile, my swordtail, Rae and Blige, I will surely get your new friends soon.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The lonely goldfish, lets call him boy; loves to do the bubble while staring at me, who is sitting on the couch, that facing the TV, that is next to the bowl, in which he is swimming. Sometimes he circle around the bowl, chasing, oh, I don't know.
Meanwhile, from the couch, when I turn my head to my right, down a bit to the feet level, I'll see the small square aquarium, where I keep the swordtails. Ah, by the way, there are only two swordtails left; Ry and Blige only. Jay was found floated on the surface, not so many days back. i don't know the reason of the death.
Staring at the two tanks where I keep my fish, more than often I feel like giving up. Not only I don't find keeping a fish as ideal, where we are actually take them away from their habitat; I also feel like I don't have the time to feed them. I tend to forget. Well, maybe because they are too little as compared to cats. Fishes don't meow like cats if they're hungry. Fish don't come to us and rub themselves to our feet like cats do. Okay, that shows the unideal parts that I'm talking about. Urm. Guess so.
But hey! Guess what??
I just bought two new fish! I intended to get him (the lonely goldfish) a new friend. Yes, I did. In fact, two new friends! However, they are not goldfish! It happened when I stopped by the road to buy coconut drink. Well, Manjung is really really hot that I feel that I need to wet my throat all the time!
After lunch, I drove around the small town until I saw a banana fritters stall that sells coconut drink. I maneuvered my car across the street to get that cooling drink. As I stopped the car, and getting ready to get out of it, I was fascinated by a school of goldfish that was swimming happily in a tank inside an aquarium shop, a few meters from me.
Suddenly I forgot about my deserted throat and went straight to the shop. I believed that, that was the time for me to get him a new friend. Surprisingly enough to me, instead of browsing the goldifsh in that tank, I walked through the row of tanks and browsed other fishes.
I asked the owner about compatible fish to be put together inside my goldfish bowl. Well, most of the tanks have the compatible fishes. After browsing and thinking, I decided to get Anglefish and Tiger Barb to be his new friends. Now I have two new fishes! I hope they befriend with each other inside that not so big bowl.
To my swordtails, wait, babies, I'll get you new friends from your breed, okay. =)
Oh, I told SailorBoy about my new hobby. Err..well, maybe a hobby. He told me that one day, we might have something like this at home...
Saturday, June 19, 2010
No, not hate. Dislike.
Sometimes he dislikes it too.
We dislike it when the time appears to be difficult for us.
Nevertheless, I know.
I know this is the best for him now.
Yes, at least for now.
I don't want you to quit. I know you can go further in this.
The perfect time will come for us, baby. We'll be there, someday.