To My Dearest Girlfriend

being with you makes me so happy, all the time we spent together feels like a dream that i don't want to end. but reality always kick you in the right spot, and it hurt so much coz we're far apart.

i want you to know that i miss you so so much and every time i'm alone, you're the first thing on my mind. i know its hard for you and its hard for me too being so far away from each other. but it's something we have to accept in our relationship.

just remember we'll be together again and that i love you so so much my sweet princess. we'll talk soon, don't worry. hearing your voice will always ease the pain my dear.

before i click the publish button, know that i love you, i miss you, i'm thinking of you every second of my life. take care princess...... we'll be together soon...

your sailor boy

indonesian songs yang best

I've heard about Kerispatih. But I've never really listened to their songs as in really really know who the singer is whenever i heard the song on the radio heading to somewhere in the car. Well, i like the songs! and also Nidji. i remember, about two years ago, my Chinese Muslim friend gave me a copy of CD of his compilation. there were a few songs from Nidji - one of them is Hapus Aku (his favourite and recommend it to me). but needless to say, I did not really pay attention to it. to tell you people, some of the songs from Nidji that I like now are Laskar Pelangi and Kau dan Aku both in Malay and English version. I thought it is because that I am in this melancholy feeling and missing-someone situation now that makes me like it. dang! it is so not like that. I like it because of the melody. and guys, if you notice, the song Shadow was made as the OST for the tv series Heroes gazette on Star World ok. how good is that!

oh, i almost forgot about Kerispatih. obviously i am not a good writer. jumping here and there. nghengeh.

I like the song Bila Rasaku ini Rasamu, Tapi Bukan Aku, mengenangmu and more will come soon.

actually I've been hunting for this one song. it is Indonesian. I can't recall the melody of the song and hell far to the artist lah.

p.s: i MISS my sailorBoy :(

his favourite, my favourite too

this is sailorBoy's favourite song for me. yeah, it makes sense, boy. it is just that you're gonna be on the next ship home.

I woke up early to baby blue eyes from the afar whoah
whoah

and when the sun comes through and lights you like the angel you
are whoah whoah

I know I do you wrong when I’m with you I’ve been gone

With every season change, it looks the same (november to june)
whoah whoah

And dont these empty streets skip a beat the flowers dont bloom
whoah whoah

I can’t believe I missed your birthday again

and I wanna come back but I just don’t know when now

And I’m so lonely your not here with me

That’s why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

The road that never ends around the bend I see you smile whoah
whoah

I’d swim across the sea to be with you for a while whoah
whoah

cos I’m made a life would be gonenow the way that I feel is i
just don’t belong here

And I’m so lonely you’re not here with me

thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see

thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

Stand around try to make every moment

and be somebody yeah anybody

it seems the whole world is taking me over

I need somebody to help me getting back to it

and I’ve always been a million miles away

but things are gonna change

I just wanna come home

And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see

thats why I gonna be on the next plane homeyeah I’m taking the
next plane home

Now I’m getting the next plane home

Now I’m taking the next plane home

sorry people for being such lovey dovey like i've never been before. :p

he's leaving tomorrow.

sunyi...

kadang-kadang, aku rasa sunyi...walaupun aku ada kawan-kawan aku di sekeliling aku, deeep inside, aku rasa sunyi...itu lah sebabnya aku mesti pergi ke suatu tempat yang boleh membetulkan kembali perasaan aku ni. aku rasa rindu dengan family aku. tapi mak ayah aku kat kampung. jadi family yang paling dekat dengan aku ialah kakak aku. itulah sebab nya aku nak balik ke rumah dia. at least, aku berasa dekat dengan family sendiri.


apa aku merapu ni??


sebab aku sunyi...dan bosan...itu lah sebabnya

we are malaysians

ah, i was so busy with my sailorBoy last week that i am now late to wish everyone

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

GONG XI FA CAI!!!

happy MOOO MOOO year!!

i have no angpau to give away..sorry :))

it is a blessing that i am Malaysian! yeay!

sailing...

i am no longer with mr. boyfriend. i am with mr. sailorBoy. yes, mr. sailorBoy is leaving. he's boarding either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. no more caffiene for my nights. no more walking hand in hand. and it will be for about 6 months.

nevertheless, i love my sailorBoy to the fullest.

ok ok...sudah-sudah lah jiwang kan...

aku ada proposal yang nak disiapkan, assignments, presentation dan banyak lagi yang perlu diselesaikan. macam bosan je kan dengar menda yang sama berulang-ulang? tapi this is the final semester. after this we're all gonna miss all these (ye ke?) betulla tu..

ok ok. aku lupa nk ceritakan pazal bubble kan?? nanti la ek. macam takda mood je nak bercerita pasal bubble. lain masa, mungkin...maaf ya.

phone chain

we (mr. boyfriend and I) went jalan-jalan at the Pavilion today. we went to this shop, named Branelli. it is not a lingerie shop (bra). it is a DIY bead shop where we can custom our beads for handphone, key chain, wrist band, necklace, and you name it. actually, it has been my dream to go there eversince we dated. i wish us to create our own gift for each other there and let the beads remain a secret until it is finished. so now, after a year and 4 months, we did it, on a whimp. i love the shop. i feel cute there. hehehehe..

there are hundreds choices of beads...

from the colourful ones...

cuties..(all these pics were taken using mr. boyfriend's phone. i don't really like the quality. my phone ran out of battery :P)

various shapes and symbols...ice creams, cakes, cookies, butterfly, oh you name it!

see!...

i felt like having them all!!! so nyummy!!

he got me this!!

and this is from me to him...

i know this kind of couple activity is so old school...but that's us. got to see each other once in a blue moon due to his nature of work - on the ship.

reconsideration

i almost forgot about this

i have asked around for opinions. i think in order for me to further my study in CnI, it is better for me to be a teacher first rather than just go blindly inexperienced. that is what the otais told me. yes, ditto.

well, i don't know. we are here to plan but He is the one who arranges it. for now, i think i am going to apply for the posting after graduating and starts my climb from there. lets see where it takes me. sometimes, to get what we want, we are required to do things that we don't fancy first. sometimes...

*reconsider*

hari ini dan seterusnya

gosh!!! hidup ini memang p*l*t, tapi esok masih ada...

(aku bukanlah pengikut cerita siri ini walaupun aku teringin nak tengok. tapi kami serumah selalu menggunakan perkataan yang dibalam-balamkan itu)

tapi ngape esok masih ada?? aku taknak esok, sebab esok kene hantar assignment. aku nak terus weekend je. (punyala pemalas aku ni).

itu lah yang aku rasa sekarang ini. dalam-dalam reluctance untuk menyiapkan assignments, siap jugak satu dan dah dihantar pun tadi. tinggal satu je lagi assignment yang ala-ala canggih iaitu courseware evaluation yang kene hantar esok. takpe, malam ni la aku tenyeh ye.

bukan apa, aku rasa macam terlalu awal je cuti pertengahan semester ni. aku belum pun lagi start enjin, dah cuti pulak. bak kata eapa, dia baru je tengah cari kunci kereta. (harap-harap kamu semua fahamlah metafora kami ini).

hurrmm.. malam ni aku rasa aku akan berjaya menyiapkan assignment courseware itu.

lagi satu, kebelakangan ini aku mengalami masalah tidur. dah dua tiga malam aku sukar untuk lena yang menyebabkan aku tak dapat bangun dengan yakinnya untuk ke kelas pada pukul 8.30. nampak macam teruk je aku ni selalu ponteng kelas pagi. tapi kawan-kawan, aku mengalami masalah tidur yang serius. ini stock takleh nak buka mata lah! jadi, tiap-tiap malam aku akan gelisah di atas tilam yang melendut tu. ataupun, kalau aku rajin, aku bangun makan atau minum milo sebab perut mesti la rasa lapar kan.

lompat.

esok aku ada temuduga yang aku rasa gemuruh. semalam lecturer aku baru je ajar satu teknik untuk mengelakkan rase gemuruh iaitu teknik 'bubble'. macam mana?? nanti aku ajarkan ok. sekarang aku macam ada kerja je ni. ok. wish me luck untuk esok ok. poyo je kot. perlu ke gemuruh? (aku seorang yang gemuruh, yang mana tulang pipi aku akan menegang. jadi, susah untuk aku melontarkan perkataan-perkataan yang harus dilontarkan).

konflik dalam diri

hurrmm..aku tak tau la ape masalah
dengan aku sekarang ni. serba serbi tak kena. aku selalu je nak marah-marah
akhir-akhir ni. kesian dekat mr. boyfriend sebab ada je yang tak kena
yang beliau buat pada mata aku (sebenarnya belaiu selalu je buat begitu tapi aku
macam tak hairan je). tapi dalam dua hari ni, memang aku tunjuk kemarahan aku
pada dia. kesian...kesian...malam tadi pulak, lagi teruk, aku gatal-gatal pergi
mintak 'time off' dengan dia melalui SMS (yang mana aku fikir itu
hanyalah 'poyo' sahaja). dia dah tidur waktu aku hantar SMS tu (pada hemat aku).
padahal kami tak perlukan 'time off'. tapi pagi tadi, aku terfikir,
elok juga bagi kami 'time off'. baru lah beliau tak selalu dimarah oleh
aku. tapi aku hanyalah 'poyo'. tengahari tadi, aku yang mula SMS beliau dulu
bertanyakan tentang ujian oralnya. 'poyo' kan aku. by the way, 'poyo' ni macam
mana sebenarnya?? apekah definisi 'poyo' yang sebenarnya?? aku pun tak
pasti. aku guna saja sesedap rasa dan sesedap ayat. 'poyo' kan aku????

lagi satu, aku hairan dengan kad bank
Islam aku. ia tidak dapat diproses bila aku menggunakan mesin ATM dalam fakulti
ni. baik bank Islam mahupun Maybank. hari tu, aku dah mengalami masalah yang
sama lalu aku berhajatlah untuk pergi ke bank Islam yang rupanye dah dipindahkan
dekat hotel Bluewave sana. hampeh betul nasib aku pada hari itu. tapi nasib baik
hati aku tergerak nak mencuba di mesin ATM bank simpanan nasional, dan ianya
elok-elok sahaja. jadi, aku fikir, kad aku dah ok sampai la waktu aku nak
mengeluarkan duit tadi, tak boleh pula. hampeh lagi.

lagi satu, aku juga
tak faham mengapa aku tidak menyertai teman-teman serumah aku bersuka ria di
Sunway Lagoon hari ini. mereka mempelawa tapi aku menolak dengan yakin sekali.
adakah sebab aku mengalami PMS? tidak, itu bukan hal sebenar. cuma, aku rasa
macam aku 'not in the mood' (kot melayu apa yea?) untuk bersuka ria. haiseh. ape
masalah aku sebenarnya???

p.s: telefon aku dah
dapat menghantar dan memerima MMS. sangat seronok! hari-hari aku menggunakannya.
:))

resume?

hah! eventually i am done writing my very first ever resume!!! yes, let me tell you the purpose later kay. first of all, i thought resume and CV (curriculum vitae) is a same thing. i guess i shall change that fossilization in me starting from now on.

Resume or Curriculum Vitae (CV)?

What's the difference between a resume and a CV? The primary differences are the length, the content and the purpose. A resume is a one or two page summary of your skills, experience and education. A goal of resume writing is to be brief and concise since, at best, the resume reader will spend a minute or so reviewing your qualifications.

A Curriculum Vitae, commonly referred to as CV, is a longer (two or more pages), more detailed synopsis. It includes a summary of your educational and academic backgrounds as well as teaching and research experience, publications, presentations, awards, honors, affiliations and other details.

jobsearch.com

can you guys see the difference? to be honest, i can't really figure it out. nghengeh. it is more or less the same to me. but all i know is both CV and resume can be written in any format (no specific format). however, there are the best way to write an effective resume and CV. there are various range of websites that of course, can show you and even suggest you the format that is suitable for you. first, i asked my sister on how to write a resume. she was so busy and asked me to browse the Jobstreet.com. walaa!! everything is there! you shall go and check it out if you wish to start a career. (i knew this website for so long and visited it for my first time ever today).

btw,

i wrote myself a resume as i am trying my luck to be a facilitator of a program for school kids ( i can't really recall what the program actually is. you can ask mr. falliq for more info).

more over, (besides for side income), i wish to gain some working experience as i am graduating in 3 months. eh. 4 months??? hence, i think those experience will help me to find a job (real job) later. (confession: i don't think i want to be a teacher - an 8-year ambition has been decaying since the practicum. and at the same time, i am not sure of what are the other talents that i am capable of). sad for me huh?

i think i love event management. and i can manage event, i am sure about that. my friend, eapa suggested that i am good at decorating and arts workmanship that i believe, my hands and fingers think they are good at it :).

after 5 years of being a TESLian and now i lost my track. bollocks!

-off to lunch (late lunch)-

i am back people!

aku dah dapat sim kad aku! so boleh la korang-korang semua start texting-texting and calling-calling ye~

alhamdulillah....

satu je..aku tak faham macam mana setting MMS telefon ni...haiseh.

kadang-kadang barang baru ni leceh jugak kan??

hish!

life is mean sometimes...or it is not?

life has been so mean and kind of funny to me lately....

1. i broke one zip of a pair of shoe and i had to buy it. thank God i love the shoes (but did not mean to buy it. i was just trying it). live with it. i am wearing it
now. - funny to me.

2. i lost my k810 phone at Topshop Pavillion (i think and positive about it). i think it was the gay pick pockets who are the mother#$%^&*. i am sad because i had to fork out more from my loan which supposedly means for books and shopping (but not shopping for a new handphone). now i am using nokia 3120 classic (it is for the 3G purpose and cheap. the cheapest 3G phone that the shop offered me). nokia??? it has been a while. i love sony ericsson oh so muchos!!!! and oh, i still don't have my sim card wit me. my boyfriend insisted to collect it from the celcom in Kuching. yes, i repeat. in Kuching, the place he is now. thus, i have to wait for the mailbox. people, i am lost in radar for a while ok.

- this is not funny at all.

despite all these, i am happy that i got Mr. Boyfriend two t-shirts that i think he will like it because i like it!!! and tonight, we (my housemates and me) are celebrating her boyfriend's birthday. we are planning on a surprise birthday party in which i had bought all the party favors and got excited about it that i think i have spent on some of the unnecessary items. hiihihi.

and oh, i am planning to start a part time job at the pizza hut again ( am i sure??). i think i really need it now since i am run out of cash for next next next months. it came to me while i was having my lunch alone at pizza hut in SACC. after paying the bill, i asked if we can do a part time here and the girl politely and happily said "yes" in fact, there are workers there who are from uitm. the working hours is negotiable. hurrmm..so why not?? i filled the form and have to wait for the call. it was in a whimp! i hope it'll lead me to a better state. huhuhu...

* uuuurrrgggghh!!!! assignments! (i mean later). presentations. research!

by chance

malas nak update..i've lost the momentum...huhuhu...

overall, i am still in in a holiday mode lah! it has been two weeks the class has started but it was like the class was cancelled (like this morning where we needed to clime up three floors and suddenly my friend remembered that actually the class was cancelled. our clasmates told her yesterday and she just realised it after the climb! funny i can say)...

and with this huge library with the flat screen computers (which we did not get it during our first semester here - why lah??? why now? moreover it is for the INTEC students, i suppose. but why? we are also the students of UiTM what??? - that is not a question to be ponder upon as we are the anak angkat in this campus kot)...ok ok...back to my point. i think getting updated is not really a problem since we got this so called privillege as a student of this campus. so maybe once in a while i'll get to go online as usual. now i miss home. :(

and mr. boyfriend, if youh appen to read this, i love you so much. can't wait to see you again, boy. mmmmmwax!!~

and oh, at last i got to do all the shopping. with my salary and sikit dari my loan yang tak sepatutnya dibelanja ke arah itu, i got myself few pairs of new clothes and shoes. and yes, my second salary is coming in today, hopefully. i am going to top up all the expenses i have made! yeay!!! and i am going to give some of it to my parents. i think that is the way i can pay them back (for now - for fetching me from work and sending me there). and i believe that it is a normal thing a daughter/son will do when they get paid kan? hurmm..come to think of it, i wish i could stay with my parents or to take them to stay with me when i have started working later. i mean, money is not enaough to pay back on everything they have done to me. it is not that my parents ask for it but i wish to do it. when they grow older, they need companions, that is the most important. but hurrmm... see la how kan?