Hey, you! Mr. Inaccessible.

This Is Not a Review

Well, it started when I tried to entertain a friend in FB. But this song is just mesmerizing to me that I'm pretty sure it's going to maim my night tonight.



I first heard this song in a the movie Wickerpark at my sister's house. Well, that movie also somehow created a bond between my sister's friend at that time who happens to be her fiance now; and me. I mean, I enjoy movies that are not cliche, in which we can never expect the story line let alone the ending. This movie gave such a deep impact to my sister and I when our assumption was nothing at all close to the line. Oh, back to the bond I mentioned earlier. He introduced us the movie and urged us to watch it. "It's a good movie" - that was his claim. He lent us the DVD and after watching it, I must say that he is one of the guys whom I know has a very high taste in selecting movies for favourite. And I just have to say this; this movie uses a pair of heels as the symbolism. Well, shoes and me - we are always meant to be. But that is not the reason for my love toward this movie. Well, with some dancing, it's just a coincidence. But I adore the shoes used in that movie. Mind you, even though I mentioned shoes, this movie is not the flick chic type of movie. Nothing close to that. For those who haven't watched it, I'm not going to tell you more about the movie for 1) I'm not good at describing and 2)I'd love you to go watch it for your own sentiment (if you feel want to).

"Passion never dies."

And knowing me, to look good soundtracks of movies that suit my ears is one possible crazy obsession to fill one of my traits. "Strange and Beautiful" is one of them.

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyric's top
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...
Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...

Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...

*Yeah..currently obsessed with.

Posting

uhurrmmm *clear throat*

Dengan sukacitanya dimaklumkan saya telah ditempatkan mengajar ke Negeri Pahang Darul Makmur.

Saya dimita melapor diri dan menghadiri taklimat di SMK Seri Semantan, 28400 Mentakab.

Lihat di situ, 28400 MENTAKAB. Tempat kelahiran tu..Tempat yang kami tinggalkan pada 1997.

Seronoknye dapat balik tempat lahir..

Tapi dilema nye sekarang ni ialah..UniKL pun nak...KPM pun sama...yang mana satu pilihan kalbu? Saya ni boleh tahan ambitious jugak orangnye sebenarnya. Ish!

*Btw, boleh pulak buat announcement macam ni kan? Takpe, baru la senang kawan-kawan aku nak tau aku dapat posting kat mana kan. Korang mesti tanya jugak nanti kan..hurmm..*

Sangat monotone sekarang ni..

Happy New Year

Sempena tahun baru ini, saya berazam untuk memajukan diri saya. Dia dah bagi jalan, tugas saya adalah untuk memanfaatkan jalan yang diberi itu sebaik mungkin. InsyaAllah.

Jom la kita sama-sama maju! :D

*teringat zaman sekolah dulu. Bila Maal Hijrah, cikgu suruh masuk nasyid*

It lasts for a week in silence.

Well...

I got this superb news on last Friday. I was so grateful for the Merciful Allah listened to my prayers. I don't know why but I wanted this opportunity so much. After the Zohor prayer, I once again told Him things that I wanted. And this is one of the good things a human can ask from the Creator.

As I finished my prayer, I checked my mailbox. I had not checked it for days as it is usually a list of vacancies from JobStreet. Somehow, there's an urge in me telling me to check my mailbox on that day. There was a latest mail received - Re: additional information, sent today (Friday at 12.27 pm). I've dealt with the subject (additional information; twice. Hence I presumed that maybe they need something else this time). I opened it without expecting anything at all.

As I was reading the first line, I was gasping. My jaw dropped a bit, and my eyes was like popping out from the sockets. I looked ugly in that face. I had not finished reading the first line when my phone rang. An unfamiliar number appeared but I could guess the place of the call made by looking at the city codes. I was excited and couldn't even speak properly to the person on the other line. Yes, it's the HR of the place. He just got back from the Friday prayers, I presume as it was 2.30 pm. He called me as he saw no response followed his email to me. Like hello, you emailed me just before you went to the mosque. It was 2 hours back. I believed that he must too, be very happy with the news that he brought me. He's such a nice guy. We talked for a while, I listened to things that I'd just read the first line, and I asked permission to hung up. I just couldn't talk for I was so excited and my heart beat like I've just done my one big lap of jogging after years of not doing it. No, it's even faster. I told my mom, unbelievably, my sister and my father. When everything was in its place, I called the HR back to get more details regarding the offer. He told me, "you are now the new staff of MIMET." and I think he could hear me smiling all way long.

I did not tell anybody but my family about this happy news. Not even my friends, SailorBoy or anybody. I have no answer for why, here. But I think as I am writing, all the significant people whom I think deserve to know about my whereabouts are informed with this news either from me or my Facebook.

For that event,

I would like to thank Adib, Mun and Kakteng for accompanying me to the interview and also checking up the place. In which reminds me that I got a summon ticket for speeding in Manjung that was informed last night. Okay, and also to my mentor, Kak Sanisah for telling me to just write in to any colleges and university that I wish to work for. Or else, I wouldn't get the opportunity to be called for the interview in the first place even though there are several places that did not give any feedback towards my applications. And to our regular visitor at the office, En. Azhan for being such a daddy telling me these and that including all the relevant and irrelevant topics of life. Not to forget all my colleagues who had given sufficient guides regarding career path in this field. I am glad to be surrounded by generous people who never stop sharing and telling me the ups and downs, the dos and don'ts in this new world of mine.

Eh, this sounds like I've just received an award, huh? No no. Not just yet. This is the real beginning to me in stepping in this new path. I am not to see or even dream about the outcomes yet. All I have to do is, to start fresh for this coming new year.

Okay. I think that's all for tonight. I should be sleeping as tomorrow errr..2 - 3 hours from now, I need to get up for sahur. Yes, it's nearAwal Muharam. Puasa sunat. :)

Dang. I was already sleepy when I wanted to write this. This is bad. Niteynite!

Taknak tau Pun takpe

Tadaaa~

Look at my header! Well, yeah..I’ve just got too much time to kill this time around and yes, everyday I need to come out with new activities; or not so new. Hence, I did some browsing and Adobe-ing and walla! Bukan apa, saja je. I think I need to inject some energy in here for me to keep my stories.

Why didn’t I just use the templates that I can find anywhere in the web? Sometimes I just don’t like the layouts where the arrangement of the boxes might not according to my taste, the theme itself might not represent me or well, maybe I just don’t want to be seen having the same layouts as anyone else’s. Okay, okay these are just petty things that I shouldn’t talk about, I think.

But, hurrrmm..one thing leads to another. Actually I feel like talking now but everybody in this house is already asleep. Here we go.

I notice that I’m the person who avoids things that everybody is crazing about. It’s not that I’m trying to avoid. How to say it eh? Oh, I’ll lose my interest in things that everybody goes fanatic for. In some cases, I’ll be called as out-dated for being that way. You know, not knowing the in thing? Yes, I could be that single person who does not know bout the in thing. When I say this, I don’t mean that I’ll be losing my interest on everything that people craze about. I mean there are several things that affect me that way that I shall keep to myself. For example, when I was little (it’s in 90’s). Do you remember the London Boy watch that the face of the watch will change its colour according to the temperature? It came in two sizes – big and small. Discard it! Stop trying so hard to recall if you don't know! But I remember at that time, everybody in my school ( I mean almost everybody whom I knew) was wearing that watch. I didn’t give a damn to it. Really. I did not even ask my father to get me one, except for my brother. He asked my father to buy him that watch, really bad and you know, being the two kids n the family made me happened to have that watch too as my father didn’t want me to show that scary long face of mine without knowing that, hello, Abah, I didn’t want the watch! I didn’t even know that he bought it for me! But eventually, I myself got excited every time the watch changed its colours and I would report to my brother to compare the colour with his! Well, my point is, I have that weird manner sometimes. Up until now. Rarely.

Okay okay, what a ramble!

By the way, I’d like to tell you that there’s one road in Seri Iskandar, Perak that I call as ‘literally bumpy road’. It is called such because of the bumpy effect it gives while you’re driving along that road as compared to the previous roads you'd have passed. There’s something about this road…I think I’m going to be on that ‘literally bumpy road’ for coming years.

Hurm..it rains here tonight. It could be a sign that, “hey, it’s gonna rain for days, yo!”.

Ahlan wa Sahlan ~

Hello. Hey lo. Halu.

InsyaAllah, SailorBoy or Seri Balqis - the vessel that he is in; is now heading to Fujairah and scheduled to anchor there on 14th December 2009. Hurmmm...let's see..where it is..

clicklickclick!! best~

The vessel will enter the Balhaf Terminal on the 18th.

click to enlarge

The terminal is in between Al Mukalla and Zinjibar. Not so interesting there, but click for the link of the image.

While looking for the images of the port, I bumped into more interesting images or I'd say information regarding this LNG traffics and the business they are doing. (MISC and Yemen LNG Co. Ltd. - ini pun baru je tau nama Yemen company ni).

By the way, why do I trouble myself, getting myself busy looking for the images of the locations and the ports he's going to? Bukan ape, I'd like to look at the same sky, same ocean, same port, same tanks, same pipes and all the things that he's looking at or going to look at when he reaches the places. He gets to see it for real, let me see it just in the pictures. :")

And oh, by the way, I remembered when he told me, "port Yemen tak siap-siap lagi, that's why kapal tak keluar lagi," (He's been 'floating' in Miri for 2 and half months - beginning two weeks before Aidilfitri). Now I just knew that Balhaf port was ready for the production of LNG on October, 15th 2009. Click here for more information. It's interesting to read!

It's a 4.5 billions investment and my man is involved in it? I'm proud of him! Even though he's not the owner of the vessels involved or the port itself. But he's having his hands on completing the project. Erk ~

bonk! bonk! make way pleeeaaaseee!!! dong! dong! knocking the body of the vessel. "sayang, I know you're in there!! hi!!" image from here .tq!

But no, he's not there in the black tank. He's down further in the water, in the hull. That's where he works. :)

When Seri Balqis reached Balhaf, I believe that the LNG will be piped up into Seri Balhaf - the vessel owned by the Yemen LNG Co. Ltd. That means, he's not going to the USA for further LNG traffic, I supposed. Seri Balhaf will do it. So sayang, nanti boleh balik cepat!!

This is Seri Balhaf, Seri Balqis's friend. He's a vessel of the Yemeni Governent. There's something about this boy. Want to know more about him? click here!

see? "Port Kelang" rubber stamp on his body. Is he built in Kelang or Japan?

Jalan-jalan

Yo! saye baru balik dari berbowling dan membeli-belah ringkas.

Ok...

Aku pun taktau la kenapa aku seronok evrytime nak berbowling padahal aku tak pernah pun menang kalau berbowling. Jangankan menang, jatuhan pin ke-2 tertinggi pun jarang-jarang je. Mungkin itu lah dia salah satu game yang boleh dikatakan semua orang suka main or yang boleh dilakukan secara spontan lepas jalan-jalan di mall ataupun makan ataupun bershopping. I'm just not good at indoor games. Lainkali kalau nak ajak aku main, ajak la main netball ke, paintball ke, wall climbing ke. Ala..mana-mana yang outdoor sikit la. Hah, kat situ, barulah terserlah ketangkasan aku yang taklah seberapa ni :P. Tadi memang lah aku kalah. Jatuhan pin tak sampai 100 pun. Tak macam dulu. Actually I was thingking of going for archery. Aku agak yakin yang dekat bowl lanes tu ada archery. Tapi eh aku lupa daa..yang ada itu ialah bowl lanes yang di Megamall Kuantan. Warga Kuantans or kawan-kawan yang pernah buat Pre-Degree ngan aku kat Kuantan dulu ~ ingat tak? Betul la kan kat Megamall tu yang ada tempat archery kan?

Lepas tu, Pergi Guardian plak. Ini lagi satu tempat yang aku alah sikit selain dari Watson's. Bak kata Siti Adeb, tak pernah lagi beliau jumpa orang yang akan berbelanja agak banyak kalau masuk ke kedai-kedai macam ni walaupun hanya singgah - singgah saja. Iye. Itu lah saya. Entah macam-macam menda saya beli. Kadang-kadang benda yang tak berfaedah pun. Hihi. Tadi berhabis agak banyak la jugak membeli food supplements dan juga, hand sanitizer yang Eskulin tu. Ha, sekecik-kecik tu pun aku beli je. Kalau ikutkan, Eye Mo moist dan beberapa benda lain seperti berus gigi, feminine wash, dan ape tah lagi aku dah ambik dah tadi tapi letak balik sebab rasa-rasa macam tak cukup bajet je. And the most important thing is, I came to my sense that I don't really need them pun. Bagus tak?? ::D Tapi ada jugak barang yang perlu tadi. Err.. tapi takpe la. Hold back dulu. ;P. Tunggu last gaji masuk next week kot. InsyaAllah..

Baiklah. Saya nak err..saya nak buat menda lain plak..

Oh, malam esok ada appointment di 'Spa Q' pulak. Terlupa ada sehati berdansa. Orang tu kata malam esok free, saya pun on je lah. Ish!

Tersekat

saya rasa nak meletop!!

I just feel bad after letting someone down. But I need to tell the truth. I deserve it.



Tapi sekarang hati saye gundah gulana. Campur pulak dengan paranoid. Ugh!

Bebelan Rawak

Malam ni saya pegi McD untuk mendapatkan Prosperity burger yang dah lama sangat dah diidam-idamkan disebabkan tak berkesempatan nak menjamah beliau. Tak, bukan nak cerita pasal Prosperity burger. Semua orang dah tau kot rasa dia.

On the way balik tadi, ternampak la sorang pakcik ni menunggang motor dengan anaknye membonceng di belakang. Anak pakcik ni bukannye besar pun. Ada la dalam size budak-budak umur 4-6 tahun (aku taktau nak cakap size budak-budak zaman sekarang. Macam ramai je yang dah oversized. terlebih zat barangkali). Masa nampak tu, teringin je nak cakap,

"aii, pakcik? pakcik sorang je ke pakai helmet? anak pakcik ni kepala dia kebal sangat ke?"

Bukan la saye nak mintak something bad happens to them. Tapi tidak ke bahaya tu pakcik, kalau tiba-tiba anak pakcik tu termengantuk ke lalu tersengguk ke belakang dan terlepaskan pegangan tangan dia dari pinggang pakcik yang tak berapa nak ramping tu?

Bahaya, bukan? Sangat Bahaya.

Satu lagi aku pantang ni kalau menunggang motor beriringan. (bengang2 ni kene cakap aku. tadi bengang sikit je). Perlu ke dik, abang, pakcik (biasenya kategori ni yang seronok seiring semotor ni) nak beiringan di tengah2 jalan? Bukan ke korang semua nak pergi ke tempat yang sama? So apa kata bila dah sampai destinasi nanti, hah sembang lah sampai tak sedar motor kene curi pun. Kalau pun korang bukan ke destinasi yang sama, silalah consider pengguna jalan raya yang lain. Perlu la kan nak lapangkan jalan di depan kamu tu selapang-lapangnye. Laluan motor kan kat sebelah kiri jalan? Bukan SEPARUH kiri jalan.

Dah lah. Nak tidur.

Aku memang cepat baran kalau aku memandu seiring dengan orang yang ntah ape-ape yang melampau! Tapi nasib baik lah aku dapat mengawal baran itu dengan jayanya sekali.

My Issue

Toldcha, I'm quite half of a paranoia.
When significant friends of mine act strangely,
I'll be pointing my finger to...


....


....


....


no, not you.


to myself.


At the end of the day, I'll get my heart and mind aching. Miserably sometimes.

Dong Dong!

My cat died and I quickly poured myself some gin
Did she die from old age or was it for my sins
God I loved her oh so much
Miss her little kitty touch
Does she miss me does she care
Oh I miss her kitty stare
Do you have a little time
Would you like to ease my mind
Talk for hours and never stop
Chop your head off
Be a lighter person
Brighter person nicer
But you've heard it all before

So ding dong
There's the doorbell hello man in white
He's gonna make you all well
Getcha through the night
But hey now
You don't feel better
As you take your fresh bromide
Maybe this man of letters lied

Let me tell you 'bout a dream I had the other night
You were in it boy you sure gave me a super fright
I was walking down the street
Downtown by the DMV
You popped out behind a door
It was odd you were on all fours
Do you have some time to spare
You were barking at a bear
It said hey you'd better stop
Chop your head off
Be a lighter person
Brighter person
Nicer
But you've heard it all before

So ding dong
There's the doorbell
Hello man in red
He's gonna make you all well
Getcha into bed
But hey now
You don't feel better
As you wake and slowly rise
Maybe this smooth jet-setter lied

Stick around one minute more
I'm smarter than you think
Do I sound like an old bore
Oh man it's just the drink
I didn't always hit the gin
There were times when I fit in
They'll never know how much I tried
Did I tell you my cat died
Do you have a little time
Would you like to feel sublime
Run away and never stop
Chop your head off
Be a lighter person
Brighter person
Nicer
But you've heard it all before

So ding dong
There's the doorbell
Hello man in black
He's gonna make you all well
There's no going back
But hey now you don't feel better
As you drift off in the tide
Maybe this jack the ripper lied
And you died

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

Hide and Seek not.

Dua kanak-kanak sedang bermain sorok-sorok.

Adik: Aunty, kakak mana??

Aunty: Taktau.

*kakak menyorok di sebelah kerusi yang makciknya duduk tu. Adik tak nampak. Tiba-tiba kakak ketawa dan keluar menyerah diri*

Adik: Hahahahaha...kakak, kakak! bagi adik menyorok pulak. Kakak kira!

*Kakak pun kira, adik pegi menyorok*

Kakak: ...9, 10. Dah ke beluuummm??!

*adik menyorok di tempat yang sama kakak menyorok, "daaaaaaah!!".

Sekianlah permainan nyorok-nyorok 5 minit.

Dulu Lain.

Sedang main-main PC yang kat rumah ni, terjumpa 1 folder bernama 'LUMUT 09'.
Terjumpela gambar time baru-baru nak start kerja kat Seri Iskandar dulu...

di sini pun dah nampak perbezaan yang agak ketara...
oh..<3!

di sini juga...

I can see the differences between now and then T.T

Kesimpulan: Mesti mulakan gaya hidup yang baru - gaya hidup sihat. *sangat terasa perbezaannya! kelihatan juga. haihs..*

ramble mamble

Oh, my heart is rambling now.

Nah, it has nothing to do with the previous posts.

Hurmm...maybe it is because I'm sleepy.

And thinking of the fact that I need to pack, and yeah, I mean to really really pack all my stuffs and leave. Plus, I need to think of going back to my hometown and to get here back for Monday, the last day.

The facts are:

1) I don't enjoy packing and unpacking (maybe soon)

2) I too, do not enjoy traveling back and fro in like, what? 2 days?

Just by thinking about it makes me tired already.

He Called, She Called

He called
She was asleep; talking subconsciously.
Oh, she's not feeling well.

He called
She was bathing; he's waking her up.
It's a morning rush.

He called
She was driving; furiously crossing the highway.
She wanted to reach first.

She called
There's no answer; he's at work.
Let him be.

He called
They talked; hardly.
It was noisy there.

She called
He's not answering
There's no connection.

.............................. ... .... . ..... .. .

There will be no talking; tonight. So suddenly.

There He Goes Again

from Miri...

today to Singapore...

and to Fujairah; scheduled on 1st December.

My sailorBoy has started his sailing again. May all the crews are blessed with good condition, safe journey and health out there.

Au revoir, mon cheri. My Nellie McKay's starts playing again.

I'm trying to make it easy. No. Not easy. I'm trying not to make it hard. That's how it's supposed to be :P

*Images from DigitalGlobe*

Bye Bye Later

Things that I'm going to miss here :

1. The food. Nyummy!

2. The dirt cheap food. And services.

3. The places I went. And am about to go :P

4. The nymunny food.

5. The hassle free life.

6. The dirt cheap food.

7. The calm ambiance.

8. The best colleagues I have here.

My contract here is ending this month. By right, it ends during Raya Haji. Despite the well, maybe exaggerated inconvenience (to unleash the sissy mengada part of me), I have to admit, I love this place (this one is the real me. hehe). I love the moderate style of living here. Good places are around (still have time to explore, hopefully).

For now, we're doing our very own 'explorace'. I've only gone to few places - Kuala Kangsar, Teluk Batik, Manjung town, Lumut, Batu Gajah due to the time. Still looking for good places to go, tho. I only have 2 Saturdays left (excluding Raya Haji).

=)

In Love, I am

Well, hello. *stretching up fingers and neurons*

It's been a while since my last update. Been too busy and well, losing the muse to write, I suppose. Plus with the twitter , FB and all; everything is updated in a millisecond.

But tonight I can't help myself from writing about the most precious treasured someone. When people are in love, they tend to do any thing at all regardless of types of actions, places, words and you name it. Whether it annoys others or not, that's not the question. "I'm in love. We're in love," they'd say.

That's just what I am about to do.

Here, tonight, in the middle of the horrendous workloads and reluctance to start them again (even though I know I can finish it in 2 hours if I really put my focus on it), I hope that I won't take more hours to jolly around after this one. I am too happy and so in love with this man. =)

1. He loves singing. I know even now he is busy singing having a fun great time karaoke with his colleagues on that lonely ship. And my bad, that I forgot that he had once sent his recording long ago to me but I lost it. It was in my old phone that was lost after a pick pocket at Topshop; remember? That's why I can't remember it, boy. Plus, that song is not really my cuppa tea. Haha! I know you love me, right. *most probably he won't read this post. Don't worry, he won't know*

2. He will be worried about me if he knows that I am living alone in this house when all my housemates are not in. He's not worried if I am scared or whatnot as he knows that I'm used to stay alone back in Shah Alam. He's worried if I will not eat. He should, tho as I will not eat as much as usual when I am alone. I just don't feel like eating when I'm alone. I need a company. But sayang, in a way you should be glad as you know how much I will eat in a daily basis. You know I'm a food freak, don't you?

3. One more thing, it will be boring when your phone ringtone is like the office's phones ringtones. It's like, "breeep! breeep! breeep!", repeatedly. Unlike others, whenever different people call, the ringtone differs according to the person. Okay, my point is, I lost my micro SD that contains hundreds songs and pictures in it. Whenever he calls, there is no special song and picture no more. It'll be lame and lame. Okay, okay. My real point is, I also lost the other micro SD that he gave together with his Celcom Broadband where he keeps all the movies and also the setup for the broadband. It is his, not mine; the micro SD. But the other day, I asked him how did he get the setup for the broadband because 'I formatted the micro SD and lost all the data'. Heheh. It is not that, sayang. I lost your micro SD too. I'm afraid if he'll get angry as I am always not good with gadgets. But I'm sure he'll be cool about it this time. =)

4. Oh, last but not least. I've bought him a pair of jibbitz; star in shape written with 'sheriff' on it. I know he won't wear jibbitz only on one of his crocs unlike others who prefer to wear different one on each. He's got that OCD, I told him. I bought them months ago and I think, I repeat; I think they are there in my makeup bag. I got no time to mail it to you, sayang. I am no longer a student who got time to write you messages in a bottle, make you cards and mail it to you the way I did before. You love me nevertheless, I know.

Okay, that's it I think. I need to start marking the last batch and I hope to finish them tonight before opening another part of two thick envelopes with thick answers and hopefully readable and comprehensible ones. =)

P.S: I'm in love. With this man. =)) Okay, I'm still waiting for him to call as he told me. I bet he's down there singing their songs.

Antara Miri dan Seri Iskandar~

...Eh. Antara Miri dan Seri Iskandar memang takde ape...tapi yang mungkin ada yang mana tak nampak dek mata kasar kita ialah gelombang frikuensi LAN dan WAN yang membolehkan kita berhubung sebegini rupa walaupun bernautika dan berbatu jauhnya kita.

Terima kasih kepada teknolgi yang ada yang memungkinkan kemustahilan.

Lihat, walaupun setelah beberapa kali mencuba, dapat jugak Olive dan Popeye bertemu mata di YM beserta Webcam.

Lihat di situ. Olive begitu gembira hingga hendak bergambar 'bersama' walaupun tidak lah bersama mana. Sang Popeye hanya mampu tersenyum gembira melihat perangai keanak-anakan Olive-nya.

Beliau masih lagi dengan posisi yang sama, yang masih tidak mampu mengikut instructions si Olive untuk bergambar bersama.

Nah. Akhirnya sang Popeye menunjukkan PEACE beliau kepada anda semua. Oh, terima kasih juga kepada Celcom Broadband berkuasa tinggi itu (yang berlampu biru dalam gambar) kerana telah merealisasikan impian mereka.

Terima kasih juga kepada rakan-rakan Olive yang telah memberikan sokongan padu dan cadangan bernas mereka. :D

Helpless means Helpless

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost,
and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you
Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be a distant memory

*Soon I'll just be that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But I'm sorry that your intended
isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me
i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i don't know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair to stay
with something no longer there
its not that i no longer care
I'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

Zee Avi

Raya! =D

Quickie on Ed Mubarak Eve...

1. This is my first time of 23 years that I did a very last minute shopping. I finalized my baju raya just this evening after searching for the best baju from Ipoh to Kota Bharu. (actually I was so impulsive while in Ipoh for the great offer of 100rm for a pair of ambroided kebaya and batik. Unfortunately, it is black. And my mother is against black on the first day of raya) * but Ma, you know that I love black*.

2. This is also my first time having to give away duit raya to my little cousins. There are 14 of them and err...I still can'r make up my mind about the amount to give. To my parents, my grandmother, don't worry. I've spared quite a lot for you. *ehems*

3. Oh, btw, actually my baju raya for tomorrow is slightly bigger than my perfect size. Thus I need to just bare with it for a day and after raya I will be going to alter the kain. Hurm..I think that's the price I have to pay for this last minute shopping.

4. My brother who works in Ipoh surprised us just now by pretending that he's coming back after the Ed prayer tomorrow morning but he called my sister to open the gate while all of us were preparing the dish and cutleries for tomorrow in the kitchen. My mother was the one who was clueless and really shocked while my father, hurmm..he just didn't get the joke.

5. My little brother's dream to win the "pakaian paling 'jangok' (cantik)" organized by the surau in our area is now collapsed. It was fist time organize by the surau committee last year in which my brother cluelessly won the award. But my brother is here already and well, lets see who'll be mandated for the award tomorrow. My little brother always want to be like my brother.

6. Oh...my mother's baju raya and my Kak Long's is one of a kind! I just don't get it as my mother's taste is always differ from her and not to forget, she always give bad comments on my Kak Long's choice of baju kurung. Ma, macamana Ma boleh sama taste ngan Kak Long ni?.

7. Oke. I think that's all for now. I need to continue my chores. By the way, jemputla datang ke rumah esok ye. Kami hidang rendang, ketupat(segera), nasi tomato and of course, chocolate cake. Raya kedua, tataw lagi oke.

Hurmm..even though we are all grown up and the spirit of Ed is never the same anymore, to reunite as a family although one of us is now in the in law's hometown, is always the gretatest gift that can only be felt once in a year. =D

And to all,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI DAN MAAF SEKIRANAYA DA TERKSAR BAHASA, TERSINGGUNG PERASAAN DAN TERLEBIH GURAUAN. oke? =)

Life Imbroglio of Wan Elly

Well, I think I’m going to make this a custom – to have Tuesday blues.

This morning, while putting on make up and dressing up for work, it occurred in my mind that I’m turning into a negative person. I have no idea why did I say that about myself but I am no longer my old self. I would say that I am a positive person. I was born to be positive. I mean not 100% positive but I always managed to fake it until I feel it. There were times when I didn’t like things but I set my mind that it’s going to work well eventually and it did; or at least I felt okay about it. Even though it did not, still I could take it positively.

Somehow, that positive aura in me is decaying day by day. I become less positive each day. Why? It is not because of my bloody foundation keeps on spilling on my clothes every morning when I opened it. Even though that ruined my mood every morning a bit and yes, I cursed a little mild word about it. Well, not a good start of a day, I’d say.

It is not a wonder to me that someone can become negative about life. It could be things that happened not to be according to order, your supposition, and expectation for hundreds of times. But I wonder how one can make a total transition from negative attitudes about everything into positive when everything is not at all according to their expectation in which it is once upon a time was a big beef to them. I know few people with this ability. For example, a best buddy of mine, he was all negative about everything- life, food, events, yada yada yada. And he admired me for being so positive about everything. Everything to me was, “good!”, “Okay!” or “okay la..”, “relax” and whatnot. Now, he’s the one who tells me all those motivational remarks whenever I told him about my state. Luke, tell me how you did that.

I enjoy teaching. But sometimes I do resist to go to work. No, I’m not beefing about teaching. Wrong if you think I‘ve had enough of it. I have warm colleagues, good working environment, enthusiastic students, good place to stay with low cost of living in which I feel blessed for it.

But there’s one thing that I can never take it positively anymore. I think you can make a good guess about it. Yes. I’m not going to state it here as it'll brake the policy of privacy and confidentiality of a workplace (I learn this from 3R), even though I’ve told my friends about it. Haha!

Well, I think this is my life’s imbroglio for today. Now I am all hyped up to start marking!!!

I feel better so suddenly. =D

Oh, what an unbelievable mood swing!

Btw, Bobo, where’s my copy of the Secret? Sudah berbulan-bulan okei. I think I really need it now. Well, you know, just in case it happens again.

I am Blessed.

Alhamdulillah...

I am blessed. Yes, I am.
Despite the hatred of my job. Eh. I don't hate my job. I hate the gaji system, okei. I love my students.

I am blessed.
To be surrounded by cool people where ever I go.
My sisters and brothers.
Cool friends in KL and Shah Alam.
Cool friends here in Seri Iskandar.
And even in FB.

Not to forget, this one cool and loving person on the other line whenever I need someone to talk to.

And a great man who loves me so much, more than his own life.

I am blessed to be surrounded by you guys. I really mean it.
You make my days whenever I feel down regardless of how close or not so we are.

I LOVE YOU.

I was told that..

My heart now feels like this. click!





Yeap. She feels like my broken-heart song.





She is down and well, doomed. Nuff said.




Reason? "N/A, I think."

Mood swing? "Maybe."

Really? Sure? "Not really."

I have no idea! "Sure, neither I do." she replied.

Tuesday Blues.

It is still drizzling outside. There's no sign of the sun coming up and to give me the energy. Ah, what a day. Sometimes I love rain. I love being in a car, driving in the drizzling rain, companied by the sound of R&B from the radio, alone or with someone else next to me. It has been a while and I miss that moment.

I didn't put on make up today. Just a slight colour of my Naturally Revealing and a few dabs of Berry Rich; to make it look innocently vibrant, coated with the Glossy Licious; minute dots of liquid blusher and that's it. I decided to have the bare eyes as I was so not in the mood for any outstanding features on my face. That is how actually my heart now.

I had a weird dream that I might consider it as a sign of my long thought last night before I managed to put my brain into hibernation. A short hibernation, to be exact. After two hours or so, I woke up of the dream for sahur. Having no appetite, I just had a piece of bread and a mug of coffee, alone and confused.

Here I am, in the office, trying to concentrate on my lesson plannings and well, marking the students' outlines. I know I need to try so hard to at least complete 60% of my tasks today as the weather is also not helping that much. And also the thought I had last night. It is about my life. "Am I doing the right thing?", "How my life is going to be for the next 4-6 months?", "Why should I have this thought, anyway?".

This is the Tuesday blues.

Anniversary(s)

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN YANG KE-52!!
Happy Independence Day!!

Make your celebration meaningful with your patriotism.

Unlike others, I'm not celebrating this historical moment anywhere but to stay at home and am about to hit the bed. I'm going a to have a long journey back to Seri Iskandar tomorrow morning with my brother and most probably will be breaking the fast alone.

btw,

Happy 2nd Anniversary to us, sayang.

I know that you're taking the flight to Miri tomorrow afternoon and will be living in that humongous ship for 4-6 months.

Just so you know, I've never been this sure about my future. With you, everything seems so true and believable. It has been a meaningful-2 year with you sayang. I hope we'll be counting for more years and decades.

I love Malaysia! And I love this particular Malaysian too. You! ;D

Not Just Yet

Well...

Currently I am numb.

SailorBoy is leaving. This time the ship is heading to Yemen and maybe the USA. Whatever it is, wherever the ship goes, the fact here is this is the beginning of waiting.

I don't hate waiting for him. I will always wait. But boy, I'm going to have a hard time missing you. And it is not easy when parts of your body are taken away from you. How are you going to live without them? Hardly. Especially when you are used to have them with you. All the time.

I Am My Mother's Daughter.

I think I am slowly turning into my mom.

She will choose one night of her weeks or maybe month to sit on the chair with her directory and her phone in her hand. That is the time when she will attend all the massages that are stranded in the inbox or that need to be given follow ups. She will spend the whole night to call her friends and sisters whom she has not been keeping in touch with for like months, maybe. Or maybe weeks. She will laugh and draw her surprise face and whatnot in between the calls and conversation.

That's just exactly what I did just now (or last night, following the time frame). I texted those whom I have always intended to text but yet to do so, and called them who are maybe expecting for my calls.

See, I'm becoming like my mom. It's just that I don't have my own directory to store all my friends' number. I'll reach those who are in my phone's contacts list.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow....

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

This evening on our way back to Seri Is we saw a rainbow when we dropped by Medan Gopeng fetching Adib. I was so excited upon seeing it after years of wondering "lama dah tak nampak rainbow...". It was like once in a blue moon event to get to see the rainbow today. :)

Out of all the colours red is my favourite.

There's nothing about me that makes people remember me but my shoes (think so). Colours is one of the ways to let them speak on my behalf.

Btw the connection here is really getting on my nerves!! Nitenite people! Till then when the connection is at the peak~